Rant thread!

Why does a Joseph's Oat Bran and Flax Whole Wheat Pita have 300 mg of sodium? Hmmmm? It purports itself to be a healthy alternative to white (read: crap) bread, but they couldn't use just a less salt formula or recipe? It's so damn frustrating trying to isolate, hell even FIND low sodium products sometimes! Arrrrggghhhh!

I'm not a size 6 yet.

Stupid? Absolutely! I'm only six weeks out, for chrissakes! I've lost a ton of weight. I look and feel fantastic.

But...I don't know what size I am. I went shopping at Goodwill and was picking out size 20s with one hand and size 12s with the other. Neither fit and I left totally frustrated. I FEEl so much smaller and the loss has been so fast that on some level I expect to really be a 6.

I know it makes no sense, and I get angry with myself for feeling this way. I've lost more faster than anyone else in my support group (being 21 has its advantages), but with every pound I lose I'm reminded how far I am from my goal. 43 pounds closer that I was, obviously, but it still feels as far aas the moon. 

Poor Nik.  My heart feels for you.  I am so old and decrepit i don't have to worry about that crap anymore.  Someone did tell me I looked nice today and I had to call my son and tell him though.  He thought it was pretty funny.

A little over a year ago, I also "put on my hair", got cute and went outside to walk my dog. Welp, she darted while she was on the leash, and pulled me down in front of 3 guys, and I broke a bone in my foot. One of the guys saw me fall, but he looked away (I'm taking it because he didnt want me to know that someone saw me so I wouldn't be embarassed). I had to hobble back to my home, hoping my ponytail was still attached, and since I live alone...I had to drive myself to the ER and....... at the time I had a stick shift car, and the broken foot was the clutch foot.   Anyhow, I thought to myself, "the universe must not want me to be cute". LOL.   

Anyway that was one of a few events that prompted me to get surgery. I was so weak and unsteady, and I had barely any strength to get myself home. 

Rant of my own.... why do carbs have to taste so damn GOOD?  I know I'm addicted to carbs and for six months I have been working to avoid the pretzels, Godiva, cookies, leftover lunches, etc etc that people at my work leave scattered about.  Eating that stuff was a major reason for my being overweight because once I started eating (even a nibble), I would feel compelled to eat a truckload. 

I do pretty good walking by and leaving it now.  But yesterday I took a mini croissant.  And OMG it was so yummy and buttery.  I wanted more!  I am definitely proud of myself that I didn't take more and that it didn't set me off on a binge, but CRAP I hate it that I still love that stuff.  It depresses me that although my tool makes it easier for me to resist than before, I am still going to have to fight these demons the rest of my life.  Sigh.

I've got a hernia and it's ticking me off because I know that I'm going to have to lay off exercise after it's repaired for a little bit, I've come to realize I'm addicted to working out!!
I haven't stopped since finding out I've got a hernia though, which I'm sure isn't good but I just can't miss a day!!

Crap!!! there's nothing worse than looking cute off the charts and having no one to appreciate it!

damn damn DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!