SOMETHING PERSONAL
Thank you all so much for the kind words. Im ballin my eyes out reading them all. I am happy to report, I did not eat the ice cream. I instead took a shower, cried and went to bed. I feel a little better this morning. I will let her letter go and just distance myself from her because she will only bring me down. Maybe one day I can forgive but for now the hurt is to strong.
My children are my excuse. Everything I do affects them. Im not rich, I cant just up and take a $5,000 vacation cuz I want to. I cant just go back to college because I have 4 kids and no one to help me, my husband works his butt off to support us so he cant just stay home to watch them. One day, I will go on that vacation, I will change career paths like I want to, but for now I wont do it at the expense of taking from my children. Their activites, time and devotion is more important to me then anything else. I will not regret that decision and I will not apologize for it. My kids will grow up happy, healthy and full of love. They will remember every activity I supported them in and put them in, no matter the cost. They will remember that I was there to cheer them on in life, in sports, in comfort and in love. They will look back and share how involved I was in their lives and I hope that they grow up to being amazing, loving, generous, successful adults in life because I loved them with everything I had to give.
Im proud of myself for not sabatoging myself because of her. That was a hug step for me and im proud of myself for it.
My children are my excuse. Everything I do affects them. Im not rich, I cant just up and take a $5,000 vacation cuz I want to. I cant just go back to college because I have 4 kids and no one to help me, my husband works his butt off to support us so he cant just stay home to watch them. One day, I will go on that vacation, I will change career paths like I want to, but for now I wont do it at the expense of taking from my children. Their activites, time and devotion is more important to me then anything else. I will not regret that decision and I will not apologize for it. My kids will grow up happy, healthy and full of love. They will remember every activity I supported them in and put them in, no matter the cost. They will remember that I was there to cheer them on in life, in sports, in comfort and in love. They will look back and share how involved I was in their lives and I hope that they grow up to being amazing, loving, generous, successful adults in life because I loved them with everything I had to give.
Im proud of myself for not sabatoging myself because of her. That was a hug step for me and im proud of myself for it.
Be careful who you confide in. Maybe you though she was a friend you could ***** and moan to. Maybe she got tired of hearing it and snapped. Her words were hurtful, but try to determine if they had any merit and learn a lesson from that.
Laura
Laura
Laura in Texas
53 years old; 5'7" tall; HW: 339 (BMI=53); GW: 140 CW: 170 (BMI=27)
RNY: 09-17-08 Dr. Garth Davis
brachioplasty: 12-18-09 Dr. Wainwright; lbl/bl: 06-28-11 Dr. LoMonaco
"May your choices reflect your hopes and not your fears."
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