Let's have an "air it out" session...

Well, I've never been this size as an adult and I think I look pretty good, so I went out to the county fair with the kids and have to confess, I flirted to see if I could get on the rides for free-----it worked, and although I am happily married, it was the first time in my life that happened---I would assume it is how it feels to have a drink bought for you at a bar---so there, my confession!

I am still in the loosing stage, so I rarely "cheat"--this fat has to go!!!!!

Hugs for you guys!

I love that. 

There's not enough room on here and I would have to eat another 1000 calories today to cover the calorie burn from my fingers typing if I really put it all out LOL!

- my house needs to sell. It's been on the market since 4/2010...a couple came yesterday evening..waiting to hear feedback..i would just love an offer!

- my right knee...accck...it's arthritis and I have a midnight race tomorrow night that I hope I'm able to complete!

- money. O sweet loving money how I would love to have some.

- I thought I lost my debit card so I cancelled and it got another ordered then found my old one. new one came yesterday, i activated it, still won't work. Ugh.

There's tons more of more serious stuff but this is all I want to put out there. So, I think I'm going to be Wonder Woman for my Haunted Half -- with my dark hair and red lips I think I can pull it off, right?

Giiiiirl...I can relate to having no money honey! It's the pits.

I hope things get better. I'm swinging chickens for you to get an offer soon!

Money? Is that the green stuff that leaves my account quicker than it comes in? lol

I'm with you on the money.  I'm trying to figure out the best way to come up with the $5000 I need to cover MY half of the cost of re-siding the house after a huge hailstorm (almost baseball sized-hail) in May (insurance will only cover replacing the two sides that were actually damaged, but it is 30-year old aluminum siding, so it ALL has to be replaced!)  It doesn;t help that I have been having to take some days off work without pay lately because I am out of sick and vacation time because of thsi stupid belly pain.

Keeping my fingers crossed that yiou get an offer on the house. My mom had her house on the market for two years and ended up renting it (she bought a new one that she got a GREAT deal on before selling the old one).  She is PRAYING that the people renting it will buy it when their lease is up in December. Worried about the effect of the S&P downgrade of the US credit rating today, though, on interest rates...

Lora

I skipped Zumba on Tuesday and only went on Thursday.
I couldn't help it, I was so sleepy, but feel so bad about it now. 

Nik--I love the part you wrote about still looking at other men when he is at home--I've been with my husband since I was 17 and we've been married for 10 years.  I couldn't see my life without him BUT I still look at what is on the market--I can look at the menu as long as I don't order from it.  Hell, if Men can do that we can too.  As far as the rest of it goes, I'm guessing your exposure to more than your share of less than perfect marriages probably set you up to be concerned about rushing into it and your gut is likely right.  All my friends that have been divorced have said a variation of the same thing--I knew it wasn't 100% right, but I wanted a family, I wanted my princess day and I believed I was in love with him.  I think you'll feel it.  You'll know it and if you don't you are wise to move forward until you do.  Just because he is a great guy doesn't mean he is the right guy. :)

As for me.  I've been lurking on the boards lately.  I'm so beyond frustrated.  I watch my calories like a hawk, I'm diligent about my exercise and the scale has been playing with the same 4 pounds for almost 2 months.  I'm exhausted, at a loss, dieting and just completely terrified of bounce back and re-gain now that I fear I might never make it to goal.  I set my goal low to allow for a bounce back cushion.  If I bounce back now I'll be miserable.  A year out and I'm obsessive about this process still.  Meanwhile, quite a few people that had surgery at the same time I did that don't work out and are not diligent at all times about their diet have sailed past me on to reach goal.  I feel broken and mad and I'm worried about breaking down and saying "eff it" like I have all those years before.  There is more but I'll stop there.   I'm so frustrated.  Thanks for the vent.

Man, do I know where you’re coming from with your air it out.

 

Not only did that happen to me, but then I had the nerve to BOUNCE. My low weight is probably about 30 lbs. higher than every one else’s here (even people my same height) and now with my bounce I probably remain one of the heavier further outs.

 

But then I had to put this thing in perspective. I bounced. But all my clothes still fit. I bounced. But I’m still pretty active (need to get back into full gear but still). I bounced. But I’m still doing the emotional work (as you can see). I bounced. And the world did not end.

It just occurs to me that my post might scare the **** out of you. You probably won’t have the same experience as me! My point is that it sometimes isn’t fair how our processes play out. It just plain sucks sometimes. I had to stop thinking about it lest I spend my life being resentful. That’s not the life I want for myself and I’m sure it’s not what you want for yourself. So keep working at it. You’ll get to where you need to be – on the scale and in your head.

 

You’re doing a great job so far.

I think I've got you beat on the heavier further out's thing.  :)

I'm ok with that, though.  I'm a hell of a lot healthier than I was a few years ago. 

I admit, I cringe a little inside when I see people who weigh as much as I do talking about how hard their life at this weight and how much they NEED this surgery.  Everything is relative, I guess.