Wanna vent some more

I really appreciate you all listening to me so much.  If you’re tired of hearing about my problems, please feel free to skip this post.

Many of you read my post last week about my nutty therapist.  Well, I think I really need therapy – you all probably think so, too.  Today I called this other mental health agency and asked to see a counselor.  They took a bunch of info from me over the phone, then said someone would call me to schedule an appointment in a few days.

Now, the guy on the phone did ask if I was suicidal, and I said no, because I’m not.  Hopefully they would have done something sooner if I was, although I suspect they would have just told me to go to the ER.  However, although I am not suicidal, I am not in very good shape, which I tried to explain to the guy on the phone, but perhaps he did not get it.

I feel very frustrated.  I feel like I keep saying I need help and no one is listening.

Yes, I know I could go to a hospital.  I don’t even know if they would admit me, though, if I’m not suicidal.  Anyway, I don’t want to be in a hospital and I don’t think I need to be.  I don’t even think it would really be good for me.  Most psych units do not do individual counseling, which is what I think I really need.  Most do a couple of groups a day and the rest of the time you sit around doing nothing.  You can watch daytime TV, like Jerry Springer and Judge Judy.

They would not have the right vitamins for me or appropriate food – at least, most hospitals I’ve been in before did not.  Like, they have yogurt, but regular yogurt, with lots of sugar.  They might have the prescription vitamin D, but would not have dry D3.  They would not have the domperidone I need for my gastroparesis, because you can’t get it in the U.S. – I have to order it from Canada.

Also, at home I have things that help me.  I get support here on OH.  I have my cats, which may sound silly, but are a comfort to me.  I have a bathtub, and long bubble baths relax me.  I can go for walks, which help relieve anxiety.

So anyway, I don’t think a hospital is the best thing for me right now.  I just need to talk to someone.  I want to talk to a counselor.  Why is that so hard to find?

{{{HUGS}}}!!!

Hope you get what you need soon Kelly!
Jan

HUGS and HUGS.  I feel where you are,  I had post partum depression with my last child and it lasted almost two years.  I was always sad and teary.  I did seek counseling and it worked.  I think the medications worked the best.  If all else fails call   your Primary Dr.   and get a referral to someone, usually a referral can get you in quicker.

I am on meds and I actually have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow.  I think the meds help some but clearly not enough.  I will see if he can refer me somewhere and get me in quicker.  Good idea. thanks.

DON'T REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO OFFER FOR COMFORT EXCEPT I WISH I COULD BE CLOSER TO YOU SO YOU COULD VENT TO ME ONE ON ONE.  THAT SOMETIMES HELPS. GOD BLESS!!!!!! JOY

Kelly - can't your psychiatrist refer you to a good therapist?  I would tell them the hard time getting into a counselor and ask them to make a call to a counselor and make you an appt while you are right there in psychiatrists office.  Try to be assertive.  Often the  "squeaky wheel gets the oil."

I'm gonna ask him tomorrow while I'm there.

Peace, blessings, and prayers coming your way. I dont know you personally but on here you are a very kind and loving person and if you need to vent vent on Sister!!!!Everything will work out in the end and you will find a beautiful therapist that will give the help you need. I promise. I am a witness  before long you beoff into the sunset with a smile on your face and your shades on   

That feeling of no one listening is THE WORST!

I agree with you  -  home sounds a lot better than hospital.   Pets are PROVEN anti-depressants - so nothing silly about that.

Depression is about hopelessness and despair.  It sounds like you are trying to be objective about the situation, and to take care of the most important person in all of this - YOU!  So good for you!

Vent any ol' time you'd like as long as it either helps, or is at least neutral. 

Keep taking good care...

Kelly, you never have to apologize for venting...you've had a good deal of frustration lately, and with not having a therapist lined up the future must look pretty daunting.   But keep "squeaking" to your psychiatrist and/or pcp until you feel heard and they help you get an appt.  Praying for peace for you.
Lizzy.