now I wanna vent
I just saw this after I posted below. When you read my post you'll see I thought the exact same thing.
Good for you. You have to practice self care and she is NOT self care for you right now.
First ultra: Stone Mill 50 miler 11/15/14 13:44:38, First Full Marathon: Marine Corps 10/27/13 4:57:11, Half Marathon PR 2:04:43 at Shamrock VA Beach Half-Marathon, 12/2/12 First Half-Marathon 2:32:47, 5K PR Run Under the Lights 5K 27:23 on 11/23/13, 10K PR 52:53 Pike's Peek 10K 4/21/13, (1st timed run) Accumen 8K 51:09 10/14/12.
1. WHAT AN IDIOT
2. She just dropped it at that?????
3. Are you feeling a little suicidal?
4. What's your game plan if a little becomes a lot?
Mary SW 273 CW 158 GW 160
2. Well, she asked if I wanted to go to the ER to be evaluated. I did not want to. Our local ER SUCKS when it comes to mental health stuff - I know from experience.
3. I don't wanna freak anyone out talking about being suicidal. So I'm kind of hesitant to answer this.
4. I don't have a set game plan at this point. We do have a hospital we have decided we would use if I need to be hospitalized again in the future, which is actually a hospital where we admitted my nephew when he was with us and needed inpatient mental health care. We did quite a bit of research to find a good hospital for inpatient adolescent treatment and were pretty satisfied with the job they did, so hopefully they do a good job with adults, too. The hospital is a couple hours away from where I live. I prefer to avoid the hospital if possible, because you don't really get much treatment in the hospital these days. You can't kill yourself, which of course is important, but you don't get much therapy.
In the meantime, my partner works from home so I will not be alone. We also have all meds and all really sharp stuff like razors locked up and I have no access to them. That's something we've done for a long, long time, because I have a long, long history of very serious depression.
Kelly
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Ok.... sounds like you have a plan..... but I am nervous for you nonetheless.
Here are the only things I know:
1. Your partner is likely saying "things will be OK" because he loves you and wants them to be.
2. The treatment you received DOES indicate short term memory loss as a side effect. I googled it, and it also says that it is extremely rare for that to be permanant.
3. I have a bad therapist story but I will start a new thread for it... even though your haiku suggestion beats mine....
You deserved better Kelly....
Mary SW 273 CW 158 GW 160
on 6/8/11 10:23 am
And her advice for the writing? You're talking about work and she's responding as though you're having a difficult time writing in your journal!
There's got to be a therapist out there who's a better match for you.
Caroline
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