~~Im the only one~~

I'm 7 months out from my surgery and I have lost 80 lbs. I am incrediably proud of myself...till now!!!!

I have been doing everything to prevent ny complications. I do feel I could eat better and have lost more weight by now but it is what it is and all I can doit be better. Thats something that I need to dig deep inside me again and do. I will... I need so much support. I need someone to talk to and someone to work out with. Here is my issue. Other then  needing to find my strength again. I am purly upset and my husband.

    John has been wanting 4 children and I keep telling him I am fine with the 3 we have. He didnt like that answer and now im knocked up. I tried everything to prevent being pregnant and I do feel he totally sabatoged me. Dont get me wrong, babies are a blessing and I will ALL my children. I didnt want this though. I was happy where I was. I was finally finding myself. This pregnancy sets me back. I am already craving things I shouldnt be eating and being pregnant makes the instense need for it. I dont think im strong enough to do this. 
   
     I cant even begin to tell how horrible it makes me feel too. I half to be watched all the time. The other day I litterally almost dropped myself and my son down the stairs because I went so weak so fast. It also makes my lungs and everything weak. I cant catch my breathe to breath. I need to sit asap and keep telling myself to take deep breathes and it finally works.
  
   I am so upset about this. I have no one to talk to about it. Its summer and I wanted to buy a new swim suite and feel skinnier in it. I wanted to ride roller coasters because I am thin enough to not feel like I wont fit or break the ride. I wanted to swim with the dolphins.

I will love my child so please dont think that I am horriable person. I am excited to hold them and to create another bond and to do everything I can to make them have an amazing life.
 
   I finally found me!!!! Now im stopped dead in my tracks, eating, exercize, the new me is all stopped again. Possible going back to who I was. I am terrified, weak, alone and not prepared, ready or happy as I should be.

   I have a million mixed feelings between happy and sad. I'm alone damn it!!

Congratulations on your pregnancy.  I know the timing could have been better but I'll bet once you get used to the idea you will be as happy as your were with your other children.
There is a forum here for people who are pregnant after WLS.
http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/postop_pregnancy/
You should be able to find support there.  I would think you would need a high risk ob/gyn because it is pretty soon after your surgery but I know that many others have had babies after WLS and done great and I am sure you will, too.
I wouldn't be so hard on your hubby.  I have heard that some peoples fertility really sky rockets after weight loss.  That is why most surgeons recommend 2 forms of birth control post op.

You're not a horrible person for feeling the way you do, so don't beat yourself up.   Remember too that you've learned a lot through this process and the surgery is a tool.   That tool will still be available to you throughout and after your pregnancy, just remember to keep using it.

You & I had surgery on the same day.  I'm 50 and past the child bearing years (thank GOD!), and thought this would be my summer in a two piece - but it ain't gonna happen.  Instead I look like a Shar Pei with all the loose skin.     What matters is being healthy.   Just imagine if you were having this baby with all that extra weight.

Take good care of yourself...and be kind to yourself and your husband.  

You are a wonderful honest person.  If you don't get your feelings out, they will just explode.  It is more important than ever, to get all of your protein, vitamins and water in.  That will help you stay strong and have a heathy baby.  You can do this and we are all here for you.  Make sure you see a high risk OBGYN and one that is familar with pregnancy after RNY.

Good Luck on your journey.

Christy

Well I don't blame you for being upset , I might be tempted to punch hubby in the face .After you get that out of your system, find a really good OBGYN, and nutritionist. Nothing says you can't exercise during pregnancy you just have to modify.
Maybe this year won't be your summer but it will happen eventually!

Please, please, please contact your WLS doctor's office and tell them of your pregnancy. I can't remember all the details, but I do know that most docs caution women from becoming pregnant too quickly after WLS. Pregnant women after WLS need some serious prenatal care and pregnancy can be dangerous to the mom. Also get yourself to a nutritionist. 

After you've done all this, kick your husband in the family jewels. . . HARD. . .and tell him it's time for him to get snipped. I don't know what you mean by him sabotaging you, but whatever it is, he had no right to do this. 

  You may want to find someone professional to talk to. . .therapy doesn't have to last forever. . . it can be just to get you through a rough patch. Or perhaps you have a pastor or spiritual advisor with whom you can confide?