Sometimes I want a reversal SO bad.

I was wear you are as well. I didnt vomit but I could not eat anything but crackers for the first 3 wks everything else gave ne such terrible gas pains I wished I had not had the surgery. I talked with my doc about it and found out I was eating too much. My NUT had told me to eat 4 oz per meal but this was too much I lowered my meals to 2 ozs and problem sovled, Your head with mess with you though. I was at the grocery store yesterday and I found these single serving container of blue bunny super chunky cookie dough ice cream and I was like of that is just enough to  quench the craving I have not had ice cream since surgery on 11/2/10 and I dont dump but anyway I got one and then I looked and was like that is not enough. Now mind you I still can only eat about 4ozs at a time and these are 6 ozs but my head is sometimes in pre surgery mode when this would have been one spoonful!!!!! it will get better I promise

I think ****rogirl made a good point.  Many of us do not have major problems after surgery and, since we don't, we don't write our experiences on here for those considering surgery to see.  I am sorry you are feeling so ill.  My surgery and recovery went very well overall.  I had a few minor complications - 2 wound sites that didn't heal for a couple of months and an impacted bowel - but I was off all pain meds after 36 hours and was able to do everything for myself post-op.  I was even back to work (desk job) 13 days after surgery.  I have three friends that have had rny and all of them had experiences similar to mine.  Two of the three were on pain meds for a week or so but all were back to work within 2 weeks.  Our ages range from 34 to 58.

 Sometimes I just think that other people can't possibly have felt this way. It helps to know that other people had similar experiences. I am just looking forward to NORMAL. Thank you everyone for all your support. It is really needed right now,

I don't know if you'll see this message since it's a ways in but I wanted to let you know you are not alone. Every day I regret doing this, I have severe metabolic disorders, brain tumor problems, am physically diabled due to a stroke, and then I added this to my nightmare already of a life.
 
I am so upset and angry and sad and depressed...I sobbed for an hour tonight. I had a terrible round of c.diff in the hospital and am fearing it is coming back again.  I spent 10 days in the hospital with the c.diff, then they overhydrated me and I had my sodium levels plummet and arm seizures...it was a night mare experience and this is my fifth surgery...my brain tumor surgery was a piece of cake compared to this.

I feel like I have just added more problems to my life than correcting any.  But if I continue to lose the weight, I know I will have added more years to my life to watch my kids grow, especially if I lose a signifcant amount. 

My goal is not to be thin but to be at a healthy weight that will help me get rid of diseases that plague me like my diabetes, hypertension, cholesterol, sleep apnea and maybe my miracle disease(water imblance from the brain surgery)...my Dr. is hoping it goes away too because it is such a rare one and he had one other patient before me with no functioning pitutiary gland like I have and his went away, he said if mine does he is writing a paper on it...so maybe if that disease disappears I can not only have a better quality of life but maybe help others. 

That is the ONLY hope I cling to is getting rid of these diseases and it is hard to see beyond my own four walls that I feel so trapped in because I can't get around easy, but I am trying every day to walk to my car and maybe drive each day.  I can't walk anywhere but I hope that I will be able to have some form of mobility. 

I just want you to know that you are not alone in feeling the way you do.  Honestly, if I had known it would be this way, I wouldn't have had this done. I would have tried a few other avenues...and maybe ended up still having it but...right now I wi**** had never happened too. Hugs to you and hang in there!! Don't let any negative comments get you down...you have the right to feel the way you do!!

I remember it...about 2 weeks out. I had 2 oz of yogurt in front of me and I was crying. I knew there was no way I would ever get it down. I thought I was doomed and that I would always feel that way. Eating was a chore. Drinking was a chore. I was nauseated a lot.
It gets better.
Deb T.