Sometimes I want a reversal SO bad.

 I knoow I know. It will get better. I won't feel like this always. But right now I feel like I want a reversal more than anything. How can this possibly be worth it? Now that Ive had the surgery I iknow that I would be able to do it on my own without the surgery. Through weigh****chers or something. I'm sick all the time and I throw up most of what I eat. I can finally ge****er down but any pills I throw up. How is this worth it? Please don't flame me. I'm just having a bad day. I know that I probably won't feel like this always and that it will get better. Sometimes though I really do want to ask my surgeon for a reversal. Would he even do it if I wanted him to? I have no idea. Maybe I should ask him. Or maybe not. Ugh.

Not going to flame ya...but just sending hugs.  I can tell you it gets better and that one day you'll look back and laugh at even considering a reversal...but that won't make you feel better now.  Sending prayers you feel better soon...REAL SOON!!

 I felt this way for awhile too. I wasn't getting sick but I felt sick all the time. Even now I still feel ill at least 1 time a day. So I had a ***** session to one of my OH pals and she gave me some pretty tough love advice:

 "Fake it till you make it" and explained that no doctor will do a reversal unless there was some serious medical reason why I should have it done. Basically she said "you made your bed now you need to lay in it and make the most out of it."

And I try to. I really felt my best after I got out of the house and started forcing myself to do things that I was "too tired or too sick" to do. I went grocery shopping, planned a date/move night with my bestie, went out of town for a weekend with my husband, worked out in the yard, etc. All things I could have easily not done but I felt so much better after doing it. 

Don't overdo yourself but maybe try getting out of the house and doing something so your mind isn't focused on the decision you made and the food you can't eat. I would still take others advice that they have given you on other posts you have made and call your doctor to make sure there isn't something physically wrong. 

Sending good thoughts your way!

Girl, I always support you even with the "veterans" lashing out childishly to my responses. As for the reversal, If he was willing to do it, I bet he would make you wait a few months cause they know emotions are the major factor in this "so called" wonderful gift that you are thinking. When I get down, I have to get my mind off it, then when I can fit back into my skinnie jeans like I did the other day, I smile. Just for a split moment, I smile. I dont have the vomiting problem, but alot of others. I am getting thru it:) you will too

"even with the "veterans" lashing out childishly to my responses"

Not sure if you are speaking about a specific incident or in general, but if you make a request that none of us "veterans" bother to take the time to respond to any of your posts, I am sure we can accommodate you.  Why the hostility in someone ELSE'S post?!?

Lora

I was just thinking the same thing.

But then I thought of what I would have considered a "childish lash out" early in the game. These days I think of it as good common sense. Knowing this, I leave posts like the above alone.

I almost left it alone, but this was the THIRD jab at veterans that I read today (although one was a more generic comment about "sanctimonious perspective-taking)" , and three is apparently my limit. 

Lora

(((((HUGS)))))

I was in the same boat as you a few years ago. EVERYTHING made me throw up. I didn't trust food at all. And then just when it started to get better I learned I dump! Oh joy!

To answer your question...how is it worth it:



See that chick? Didn't even care about herself enough to do her hair, wouldn't let folks touch her...dodged cameras (which is why you don't see more "before" pictures other than this one floating around). This is the girl who was sitting where YOU are right now.



This girl? She's doing MUCH better. She laughs. She enjoys life. She hugs people. She smiles. She takes pictures! And she's able to eat a decent meal without throwing up.

It does get better. And you KNOW why this process is worth it...but it is 100% ok to have a bad day.

If girl #1 knew what girl #2 would be...I think she might have had a better outlook but when I was there I thought the exact same thing you did.

Hang in there.

Beautifully said!!

Congrats girly! You look so damn good! Gone with your bad self!