Is it really worth it?

I'm keeping this "secret" as well to everyone that isn't in my immediate circle.  I made the mistake of telling other people when I had the band.  Now I've gained my weight back and I feel they are looking at me as a failure.  I didn't fail...my band failed me...which is a whole different story.  I'm just sick of them asking me that and the last thing I need is the rest of the people judging me as a failure.  I have NO SUPPORT at home.  Thank God for my best friend and my parents.  My hubby is gonna wish he had supported me more when I'm skinny! LOL

I didn't tell many people, and the people I did were completely supportive.  So I was fortunate.  I know some people that should have been supportive of me wouldn't have been, so I didn't tell them.  Everyone knows I have a personal trainer, that people are definitely  noticing the weight loss, but no one has who didn't know about the surgery has questioned it.

With that said, I think it is worth it, and I would do it again in a heartbeat.  I went through a couple phases of being really freaked out about my decision, but the couple of days prior to surgery, when I thought I'd be the most nervous and questioning my decision the most, an amazing calm came over me.  I was completely at ease with my decision to have this surgery, and my choice in surgeons.  Even when I've had more minor procedures like my tonsils out or wisdom teeth out, my blood pressure went up so high because of me being nervous.  This major surgery, it was normal, and I was relaxed in the waiting area, and they didn't even have to give me anything.

Now, I am about 6.5 post op, and those first few days in the hospital and the weeks of recovery seem like such a distant memory.  And none of it seemed so bad.  At least its easy to say that now.  Sure, I was in pain, and it wasn't a walk in the park, but it was well worth it, and the 100+ lbs that I have lost remind me of that. 

I know there are people who have regrets or who have complications, but at my three month post op my surgeon told me that my experience is the norm and the way it should be.  Unfortunately, its the people with problems that often post on message boards the most and that you hear about, but most peopl do well with this surgery.  It has actually been better than I thought it all was going to be.  And I wish you the best with your decision!  I am sure you will do great!  And hopefully your support group realizes that, and just supports you in your decision!

Congratulations.  Stories like yours are why I'm here.  I just need to know that others had the same thoughts, worries, etc, but came through fine and are doing great!  Thank you so much!!

That's the reason I try to still check in here and post even when I don't personally have questions!  I was here all the time during the "research" stage, but I was so thankful for the people who had gone through the experience that took the time to tell me their stories, that I make a point to come here as much as possible and do the same!  I really think you'll be happy!  Everytime I think about something I want that I shouldn't eat, I think about how great I feel now.  And I still have 80 some pounds I want to lose!  There are some before and current pictures in my blog.  Believe me, you'll love the new you!

Oh, and thanks for the congratulations!