I feel like I failed last night

I went for my monthly bunco party with the girls, it's always a lot of fun. Drink is involved too. I had found out that I could drink Bloody Mary's last week so I brought the makings for those.
I only had 1 1/2 drinks but because I was a bit buzzed I was doing stupid stuff. I felt I ate WAY too much and shouldve felt too full to do what I was doing.
I was only eating healthy stuff, like nuts, the insides (meat, cheese etc) out of a sub sandwich, cantaloupe and watermelon but it scared me because I wasn't getting that sickening full feeling that I thought I should get. I also was drinking and eating at the same time maybe that is why.
I'm not ruined am I? I feel horrible that I hate that much last night.

Use this as a learning lesson. 

Alcohol numbs and will reduce your ability to "feel" fullness and to make decisions. That being said it doesn't sound like your choices were that out of line- perhaps the quantity was more than usual. Fruits chew  down to mostly fluids so perhaps that's why you didn't get a full feeling.

Next time drinking just the tomato juice w/out alcohol might be the answer. No one but you would know what's in the glass.

Today's a new day, a new start.

You've only "failed" if you make a regular habit of this, and even then you can take back control.  An occasional splurge isn't going to make or break you.  I usually treat the uncomfortable feeling as a "teaching moment".  Think of it this way: you might have eaten more than you typically do, but it's probably a lot less than you used to eat.  Just don't make this a daily/weekly habit.  Recriminations are only useful when they remind you how you should behave, and not a way of running yourself down.

/Steve

Youre right, what I ate was a heck of a lot less than what I would've eaten pre-op.
In fact if it wouldve been pre-op I wouldn't have stuck to the high protein and fruit choices there. I wouldve went for the nachos, cup cakes, brownies and pizza that were available.

I think, for me anyway...it is important to dust yourself off and say tomorrow is a new day.  It won't be the last time you have indulged. It is all about making choices. Last night you ahd fun, ate more than you should.  So today be more aware.  Don't worry!

I definitely don't think you are ruined. I had a night that I was, shall we say, less than proud of several weeks back that involved alcohol. It was a real learning lesson for me. Part of me is in the camp that says I don't drink often and I will make those nights my "free nights" where anything goes eating wise because the sad truth is that alcohol + eating=overindulgence for me. Between reduced feelings of fullness and reduced judgement it is never a great thing for my eating. The other part of me doesn't want to go down that road because I felt weak and out of control, but again, part of that weakness and lack of control stemmed from my not giving myself permission to cut loose a little. If you know this is a monthly function, are you okay emotionally to free yourself from the constraints that you might place on yourself otherwise and just cut loose that one night?

And do me a favor, take a walk over to a mirror, take a good look at yourself and say the following, "I have accomplished in 6 months what people never manage in a lifetime and I am awesome!!"

Take care,

Denise

Thanks Denise,
I need to hear that.
I ate a good breakfast this morning. A poached egg on a half of piece of whole grain bread. I hardly got it all down because pouchy told me that was a lot of food, then I smiled and realized that today is just another day.
Yes, I have accomplished a lot in a very short period of time as have you.
When are you going to post your pictures again or did I miss it?
Thanks again,
Nora

I'm gonna post my 6 month pics. I got my haircut and it is a bit too short for my liking, so I figured that would give it a few weeks to grow out and I'll have the 6-month mark to celebrate. I need to see the comparison shots badly because I'm not feeling all that impressed with my body at the moment. I am feeling better and moving around better though, so at least that is something. Now if I can just remember how to post the stinkin' pictures without taking 4 hours to do it!!

Good for you for getting back on the horse this morning. It seems my pouch always reminds me that I'm okay just when I'm suspecting she's broken--2 ounces of thai meatballs this morning and I was stuffed.

Enjoy your weekend!!

Denise

Hi Denise, 
      Wow you are out 6 months already!? It seems just like last month I was welcoming you to the losers bench! Where does the time go to? I can't wait to see your 6 month picture. Hugs Alizka

first of all... it doesn't sound like you've "failed".  you had a little slip up, which happens to all of us, i am certain.

something in alcohol does something to your blood sugar and makes your appetite astronomical, which is why after a night of sucking down captain and diet cokes i would (pre-op, natch) make a "run for the border" or hit the diner (for some chicken fingers and cheese fries), or head to my personal favorite, white castle.  the fact that you're intoxicated lessens your inhibitions-- so if you were ignoring the urge for an angus third pounder and a 10 piece mcnuggets, your judgement is compromised as well.  the two are NOT a friendly pair.  i'm not sure what a good suggestion to be, except MAYBE if you attend an event you should stay away from the alcohol.  obtain one plate of food, sit down and eat it and don't go back for seconds.  if you're planning a night of alcohol indulgence, maybe opt for a place where the kitchen has already closed or even better a place that doesn't HAVE a kitchen.  once you've had your fill of alcohol, concentrate on drinking water for the rest of the evening.  good luck!