End of my rope.
Even with blood in your eye and poop in your shoes, you are, as ever, a lovely, fascinating woman. A few months back you helped me get past a visit from my old nemisis, depression. More importantly, you gave me another effective way to deal with that problem that I have used since. I will always be grateful to you for reaching out to me when I really needed it.
Your courage and determination in dealing with the myriad problems you have faced and are facing now is both inspiring and humbling to those of us who are, by comparison, very fortunate not to have had substantial complications thus far on our own journeys. Inspiring in the sense that, if Shari can face and defeat all those monsters, maybe I can get through my day to day challenges with how I relate to food, how much gas I have, dealing with changes in the personal relationships in my life, etc., etc. Humbling in the sense that your battles have been at least an order of magnitude more daunting than my own and yet you carry on, forthright and funny, as if it is just a walk in the damn park. What I am leading up to is, well, I truly think you are awesome and deserve better than this latest **** sandwich that life has given you.
Although I am not at all a religious guy, you, dear lady, do have my most sincere prayers and wishes that you will feel better soon.
Take care,
RP aka Dicky Pierre
"Oh sweet and sour Jesus, that is GOOD!" - Stephen Colbert Lap RNY 7/07-- Lap Gallbladder 5/08--
Emergency Bowel Repair 6/08 -Dr. Meilahn, Temple U. Upper and Lower Bleph/Lower Face Lift 12/08
Fraxel Repair 2/09-- Lower Bleph Re-Do 5/09 -Dr. Pontell, Media PA Mastopexy/Massive
Brachioplasty/ Extended Abdominoplasty (plus Mons Lift and Upper Leg lift) / Hernia Repair
6/24/09 ---Butt Lift and Lateral Thighplasty Scheduled 7/6/10 - Dr. Ivor Kaplan VA Beach
Total Cost: $33,500 Start wt: 368 RNY wt: 300 Goal wt: 150 Current wt: 148.2 BMI: 24.7
Remember that we are here for you, as YOU have been here for so many of us.
I'm sending you a cyber hug, wishing I could do more. Please go to the ER. You know you'd be advising the same thing if it was one of us in the same situation!
Hang in there and feel better soon.
Debbie
I could say something very whimsical and cushy like "that which does not kill us can only make us stronger" but you and I both know that won't make you feel better.
As exhilirating and amazing and awe inspiring as life can be, it can be equally tiring, hard, annoying, and just plain sucky. Being stoic is your way, I get that. But I hope you have a good outlet for when you need to just let loose. I myself used to go in the basement and just scream my head off for five minutes. Did me a world of good. I hope you have something like that that you do to take an edge off all the stuff going on.
The good thing about this, though, is that even though you can't see how this too shall pass (ok, that was one corny saying, forgive me...) life has a way of marching on and it passes whether through your own efforts or from the sheer motion of that marching forward. So if you need to...sit still for a minute...let the rest of the world's momentum carry you and get back in the march when you're ready.
Over and out!
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!
Amanda 5'10" 346/316/158/175 (start/surgery day/current/tentative goal)
Somewhere inside me, there is a fat girl just dying to get back out. I mostly just try to keep her subdued with sugar free pudding, but she's not amused.