Why I am revising from RNY to DS
X-Posted on the Failed weightloss messageboard as well.
Truely, I feel that my RNY failed me............... "There is no point in losing weight and then gaining it back. This only causes enormous psychological devistation."
I was 175 pounds when I was in grade school. And 230’s in 7th-8th grade. And 260’s as a senior in high school .
Here I was over 300 pounds:
When I was 30, I had RNY (in 2002) Here are 3 years of pics with the weight difference:
I had started my weight re-gain in 2003. I weighed 150 in May of 2003.
Here I am in October 2003:
And, as you can see below, (my mom & sis with her 1st boy, Joshua). On my sister Debi’s b-day in 2003 or 2004.
The weight I am maintaining now, 225-230. And have been maintaining for 7 years.
July 2009 at 230 pounds:
I hate my physical body. HATE IT. This is why I am continuing my journey in exploring a revision from RNY to DS.
-Jamie
RNY 2/26/2002 DS 12/29/2011
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1
SW 298 CW 192 BMI 32.9~60% EWL
LW 151 in 2003
TT 4/9/2003
Normal BMI 24.8 is my GOAL!!!
GBP (RNY) 2/26/02 298 lbs, TT 4/9/03 151 lbs, DS 12/29/11
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1/CW 192 BMI 32.9/GW 145 ~ Normal BMI 24.8
**Revision Journey started 3/2009 Approved 12/12/11**
Ladytazz-
I appreciate your kind words. I truely wanted to put this out there for everyone so that they may see someone elses struggles, and get support and insight.
THANK YOU!!!!!
-Jamie
RNY 2/26/2002 DS 12/29/2011
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1
SW 298 CW 192 BMI 32.9~60% EWL
LW 151 in 2003
TT 4/9/2003
Normal BMI 24.8 is my GOAL!!!
GBP (RNY) 2/26/02 298 lbs, TT 4/9/03 151 lbs, DS 12/29/11
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1/CW 192 BMI 32.9/GW 145 ~ Normal BMI 24.8
**Revision Journey started 3/2009 Approved 12/12/11**
It is a scar that stays with you even when you think you are healing, even for me and having lost weight, it comes with fear and doubt in ourselves and our ability to succeed, to be afraid to hope only to be hurt again.
Don't give up. Your health is worth it and your dreams will come true.
WLS 10/28/2002 Revision 7/23/2010
High Weight (2002) 240 Revision Weight (2010) 220 Current Weight 115.
I was in your shoes, truly. In high school my lowest weight was 168, a number so arbitrary that I picked it as my rny goal. I weighed 225 in the summer of 1986, after I had my son. By 2002 I was up to 335.
RNY never got me to goal. I'm a slow loser, I have a crappy metabolism and pcos. Even with very strict dieting and exercise I regained from 175 to 221. I'm really glad I went for the revision. I may never get down to a completely normal bmi, but I'm healthy, I'm happier, and I know it was something I had to do for me.
You will do this and you will succeed!
Bailymouse-
Thank YOU!!!! I want to succeed too!!!! It has been a long road, but it has slowly paid off, and will continue to pay off. One of the big pay-offs for me will be having my revision surgery, whenever that will be. But it WILL happen!!!!
It is hard not to hate my physiacl body, I struggle with that constantly. I have HUGE body issues.... again.
Thank you for the encourging words!!!!
-Jamie
RNY 2/26/2002 DS 12/29/2011
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1
SW 298 CW 192 BMI 32.9~60% EWL
LW 151 in 2003
TT 4/9/2003
Normal BMI 24.8 is my GOAL!!!
GBP (RNY) 2/26/02 298 lbs, TT 4/9/03 151 lbs, DS 12/29/11
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1/CW 192 BMI 32.9/GW 145 ~ Normal BMI 24.8
**Revision Journey started 3/2009 Approved 12/12/11**
I'm in your same situation. I had RNY in 2005. The DS wasn't even an option for me, my insurance didn't cover it.
I've since read that it's possible to appeal your insurance and get the DS, but I didn't know that at the time.
I started out at about 240 pounds and by 2009 I was at 125 pounds. I LOVED IT!! Holy cow, I loved being thin!
But then I got put on steroid treatment (long story), a buncha bad things happened (long story) and I gained back every single friggin' pound. I'm so mad and depressed about it.
I really want to do a revision to DS. If by some miracle I can get the surgery — the surgeon says I've got to solve some of my health issues first, so I might be looking at another year before I can do it — I hope that it fixes things because it isn't as if I can keep coming in for revisions because I can't keep the weight off.
Lynda
Lynda-
I understand your words of "I hope that it fixes things because it isn't as if I can keep coming in for revisions because I can't keep the weight off."
How TRUE!!! This is my LAST SHOT. Period. So, I KNOW that whenever I do have my revision that I have to work HARD take off my weight, and be extra DILIGENT in maintaining my weight loss!!!!
I also hope that you have extra luck in solving your helath issues SOON, and QUICKLY, so you too can continue on your journey!!!!!
Thank YOU!!!!
-Jamie
RNY 2/26/2002 DS 12/29/2011
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1
SW 298 CW 192 BMI 32.9~60% EWL
LW 151 in 2003
TT 4/9/2003
Normal BMI 24.8 is my GOAL!!!
GBP (RNY) 2/26/02 298 lbs, TT 4/9/03 151 lbs, DS 12/29/11
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1/CW 192 BMI 32.9/GW 145 ~ Normal BMI 24.8
**Revision Journey started 3/2009 Approved 12/12/11**
Hislady,
Thank YOU for the Positive Affirimation!!!! I think the positive attitude is crucial. But sometimes I honestly find it hard to look at myself in the mirror. Yes, I am seeing a therapist weekly, so I am working on myself.
-Jamie
RNY 2/26/2002 DS 12/29/2011
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1
SW 298 CW 192 BMI 32.9~60% EWL
LW 151 in 2003
TT 4/9/2003
Normal BMI 24.8 is my GOAL!!!
GBP (RNY) 2/26/02 298 lbs, TT 4/9/03 151 lbs, DS 12/29/11
HW 317 SW 263 BMI 45.1/CW 192 BMI 32.9/GW 145 ~ Normal BMI 24.8
**Revision Journey started 3/2009 Approved 12/12/11**
