HELLA ANGRY - SORT OF HAD SURGERY

 

I am hella angry and do not want to type or respond at this moment to anyone, but I know it must be done in order to avoid all the phone calls and emails.

Please keep this in mind if you do respond to this post as angry as I am at this point I may or may not rip you to shreds verbally or just may not respond today. That is how angry I am now.

Please allow me adequate time to regroup, calm down, and get additional information so I can get my game plan together.

I am not angry with Dr. Nicholson or his staff so please do not get that twisted.

I am hella angry at the situation.

This is what happened in a nutshell.

I arrived at the hospital at 6:45 am.

Had pregnancy blood test done at Wadley Towers AM admit lab.

Mom and I arrived at day surgery admitting at 6:57 am.

I was asked all the standard questions by the nurse that you are asked prior to a surgery and then she handed me a bag with my gown in it.

They called my name and Mom and I went to the surgery holding area where I put all of my clothes in the bag and put on the gown to wait for the doctors.

Anesthesiologist came back and hooked up my IV.

Another nurse came back and asked more questions.

Surgery nurse comes back and says that due to abnormal EKG results surgery was canceled and I would have to see a cardiologist to get cleared.

I was pissed and explained that was already done and explained that if it was not in the chart to contact the Dallas office and have them fax it to them.

They faxed it over and all was well.

Dr. Nicholson came in and we confirmed what he was planning on doing and that my common channel was going to be 100.

I was wheeled to the OR and the Anesthesiologist gave me my magic margarita in the IV and off to sleep I went.

I woke up in the recovery room as soon as I came out of OR (I always wake up right away when I get to recovery) and was ready to go to my room when the recovery nurse tells me that I am being discharged today.

I knew that was not right based on my type of surgery so I just ignored her and chalked it up to she has no idea what she is talking about or she has me confused with another patient.

When I was wheeled up to my room my mom had this serious look on her face and she says the surgery was not done at all.

I felt my four incisions with my fingers in recovery so I had no idea what she was talking about.

She said that Dr. Nicholson did get inside to perform my revision from Gastric Bypass proximal to distal, but when he got inside he said that the large intestines was smaller than he thought it was going to be and it all had something to do with the way my original surgeon performed the original Gastric Bypass Proximal.

He told my mom the issue with completion of the distal revision with my intestines this way would have meant that I would have had severe issues for the rest of my life with eating, malabsorption, nutrition, etc….so he stopped the surgery and went on to perform someone else’s
surgery because he said he wanted to talk to me when I was coherent and alert about what happened.

I then called his Dallas office because what my mom said to me made no sense and it still does not. I spoke with Dr. Nicholson’s nurse and she said the same thing and it made no sense and it still makes no sense to me.

I have an appointment to see Dr. Nick Nicholson on September 9, 2009 at 3:30 pm basically so he can talk to me for one because after I was laparoscopicaly cut on I never talked to him, but my mom did and two he is supposed to make this make sense to me by drawing a diagram of my anatomy on the inside and explain what my options are next.

I BASICALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WAS DONE TO ME TODAY!!!!!!

NO FREAKING IDEA!!!!

My mom said he mentioned something about a band which to me sounds like band over bypass.

I HAVE NO IDEA!!!!! ( I am crying my fu*(^%# head off as I type).

I am hella angry because of all that I have been through to get to this point.

I want to know why the EGD and Upper GI w/ small bowel series, and colonoscopy did not show the size of my intestines?

I am hella pissed and I have no answers to anything so I am begging you all..

DON’T ASK ME ANYTHING!!!!

What I have typed is all I know.

I am getting offline to continue crying and I am going to go buy some cigarettes and hooch.

I have no idea when I will be back online as I am hella angry.

I hope you all have an absolutely fabulous day.

Please be kind to one another.

Thank you all for your support.

P.S. I know you all are coming from a good place when you say God must have better plans or it happened for a reason, but in the state of mind I am in right now please just do not even say those things to me.

It will just add fuel to the fire I am getting ready to start somewhere. (Just Kidding)

LMFAO behind the tears!!!

I was kidding about the fire, but not about restraining from saying what I just asked you to.

I am too angry at this point to hear anything related to GOD at this time so please respect that.

Thanks for understanding.

Teena, all I wanted to say is that I am truly sorry that this has happened.

Dear Teena-

I'm so sorry to hear about your experience. I can't even imagine the myriad of emotions you are feeling right now. You are right to feel whatever is authentically coming forward for you. I would want answers, too. Immediately, and the fact that you haven't marched yourself over to his office and sat there until he answered your questions shows you have much more restraint than I would have had. Not that you need do anything differently, only that you have my empathy about what you are feeling.

It does sound as if your surgeon now had a better sense of your anatomy and I am praying that there is a graceful solution that he can offer you that will allow you to experience a healthy, vital, long life.

You are in my prayers!

With Light and Blessings

 I am still hella angry and feeling numb, but I am slowing, but surely getting better.

I hate feeling this way and letting anything get or keep me down for very long.

I have called my surgeon and asked questions, but there is nothing that can be done or explained in great detail until I see him face to face next Wednesday on September 9. 2009 at 3:30 pm.

I wanted to write you all and let you know that I appreciate the concern and the prayers, blessings, and kind words and thoughts.

I am sure you all will understand when I say that I will be refraining from coming on the boards for a while until I see my surgeon on September 9^th.

I am happy for all of you that have had and are going to have your revisions and WLS surgeries, but considering what happened yesterday with my revision surgery I would not be any type of support at this time for you.

I just would not be able to emotionally as my heart feels like it is in a million pieces and I have no idea what my next step is regarding my WLS repair and revision.

Thank you all once again for reaching out to me with support and for trying to hold me up when the ground fell from under my feet.

I will update you after my appointment with my surgeon.

Thank you all for your understanding and support.

Teena 

 Posative thoughts and prayers are being sent your way.  and I agree get all your frustration out so your head is clear when you talk to the Dr.

Thank you Ginau

Teena,

So sorry to hear of what happened to you!  How devastating it must be.  Hopefully you get your questions answered on the 9th and that you and your surgeon can come up with a course of action that does not cause you possible long term health issues.

Please keep us posted.  Thank you for sharing. 

Thank you mew6495... you have been one of my biggest supporters and this means a lot to me.


Thank you

((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) I am so sorry.

Thx for the hugs Demi.

I appreciate it.