i'm gonna tell you a secret i'm not telling anyone else

i won't even admit it to myself.

i wanna be pregnant again. there i said it.

my rational brain says NO WAY!! thats the LAST thing i need. we're struggling enough now as it is. i'm struggling with one kid and very little help/breaks. my husband works a job where i never see him and its getting to me big time. financially we are just getting by. not to mention i'm on a mission to get the weight off so i can get my panni removed next year. no no no another baby is the last thing i need right now. 

but that irrational part of the brain, the one who doesn't care about reason, wants to do it all over again. knowing full well it will be even harder with a toddler. for some reason i finally have my **** together and i feel like i want another chance to do it right. i feel like there are so many things i would do differently with this pregnancy, with breastfeeding, with comforting my son, i want a 2nd chance to do it right. i'm looking back on my natural (painful) childbirth with only beauty. i wanna do it again. i have dreams about giving birth to a baby girl.

perhaps this is just the seed being planted. and with time it will grown. i was planning on trying again when my son is about 3 which is 1.5yrs from now. but i just had to get these thoughts/feelings off my chest. and i know you broads are just as crazy as me about babies. lol.

Go for it! I never thought I'd be pregnant again after wls but god has blessed me with another and I couldn't be happier.  Although I have gained tons of weight with this pregnancy,  it's worth it. 

I am 5 weeks and loving every minute of it! I had planned on waiting until I was 18 months out but this little blessing had other plans for me! I am very excited! Good luck, whichever way you decide to go.

They say Labor pain is the easiest to forget! Guess that's why many women do it over and over! I didn't expect to find myself pregnant after 7 years of NO pregnancy but the RNY had made my PCOS go away apparently and here I am!  I have 9 and 7 year old who's over the moon! Do it! :)

haha omg i remember saying after the baby was born, this kind might be an only child because i could NEVER do that again!!!! i was so traumatized. lol. and the moms at the birthing center laughed and said, we'll see you back in a year. its so true. its like built in amnesia as a way to survive and continue the species.

Hey Meli! It's been awhile ;)

i just found out I'm pregnant with my second and we weren't trying. It's crazy considering how much effort it took last time. I'm scared and excited! If everything goes as planned our kids will be 2.5 years apart which I always thought would be ideal. I gained a lot of weigh back and am nervous about that but there's not much I can do about it now! We have an ultrasound this Thursday to see the little bean. Good luck with whatever you decide ;)

hi nikki!!

congrats on the pregnancy! how exciting!! 

well i've been having medical issues recently. fatigue, depression, moodswings, etc. it took me a while but after looking online it looks like i might have issues with my thyroid. i just got bloodwork done today and i go in for a follow up in 2 weeks. i fear it will be a long drawn out process and probably some kind of life long medication. :/ this medical scare has definitely scared the baby bug out of me. right now i'm having enough trouble functioning and doing my daily activities. 

but i still have long term goals. still going to stay on track with eating right and try to exercise whenever i can which lately has been 1 or 2 times every 2 weeks. :/ and i still plan on getting a panniculectomy by next spring. thats still the plan. the baby stuff has been pushed off to the side. i'm not in a rush. but when its time, it will happen. if it happens before then, i will be ok. it will be a blessing for sure. but for now i have enough on my plate.

good luck with everything!!!

I have four children. The oldest just graduated college, and youngest is 13.  We love kiddos at our house! We've had too much fun on this wild, wild ride - I wouldn't have missed it for the world!

IMHO, fertility only lasts a short time during our female lives, and it effects our long-term outcome many years down the road. Choose, don't settle.  http://www.selfpower.com/cohen1.html

 i know, its true. its something i'm always telling my friends who are almost 35 and not even married. i'm like..tick tock. i'm 34 now and i know my window is closing. i have the rest of my life to get my **** together, only a small window to have children. something to think about.