2WW over

Well AF showed her ugly head this morning (as scheduled at least she is consistent)

I was really hopeful this month, we timed our BD just right.  It's so hard to stay positive. I believe GOD has a plan and I'm trusting him but it just sucks to have your hopes crushed month after month. 

Oh well here is to a possible New Year's Baby!  Oh yeah and I can have a much needed glass of wine tonight.

How did the other TTC'ers do this month? Any BFP's?

I am sorry! ((Hugs)) This wasn't our cycle either even though I had TWO good follicles! We did a trigger shot and progesterone, BD on ALL the right days and NOTHING :-( We are now saving up for an IUI in August :(. I wi**** wasn't soooo hard for us ;( I feel your pain, and want for wine LOL. I have gained 7ish pounds from eating crap ...mostly chocolate:/ sigh.... Good luck this month!!!!

Hugs right back at ya.  I think I got ya beat in the weight department, 10lbs since Christmas...I lose 8 then gain back 5...sigh. 

I pray your IUI takes on the first go around.  My fiance has to do some blood work and we will be doing IUI probably in June.

I hear you! (sending hugs)!!! (Pinot noir is my fav!) DH and I were supposed to do our 2nd round IUI last Monday but Timing is crucial as we live a fair distance from our clinic and we just didn't make it. It was a very emotional day for me. I had a really strong 2 lines on my OV test and I was determined to make it but alas we did not. I want a child so much but this whole process is becoming such a stressful issue I feel it's not always worth it. I'm a little down (sorry about being whiny) and i feel i may never get a BFP. So I'm in the middle of another 2 week wait and I am not as excited as I have been previously. I totally agree it is getting to be impossible to stay positive. On top of everything I feel like I'm losing my mind, feeling things that aren't there, or almost talking myself into being prego!

So I feel your pain!

(Being a part of this blog helps me feel not alone and it makes me smile to see success stories)

Hang in there!
Liz

Re missing your 2nd round of IUI, that totally sucks....I'm so very sorry. I totally understand that feeling of maybe all this isn't worth it or maybe it's just not meant to me.  Then immediately I say no....I know GOD will bless me with a child of my own, I just know it in my heart of hearts yet this knowledge doesn't always make the emotions easier to deal with.  I hope that you get your BFP this month.

Oh and regarding the feeling of loosing your mind....my cycle did something weird this month.  It started on Monday but then it stopped...nothing all day long....so of course my mind started going to thoughts of hummm maybe that was implementation bleeding so of course i tested this am....BFN! so your sooooo not alone in the thoughts/talking yourself into pregnancy. 

Sorry to hear that!   I had two mc's in two months, so this month we're taking the month off and waiting for some blood work results and a normal cycle before trying again.  It is just frustrating when you start thinking about things like "by Christmas we could have another person in the family..." .  My husband gets frustrated that I'm so quick to plan ahead, but it is so hard not to!

Paula,

I'm sorry about your miscarriages. They are never easy....I've had two myself, one before WLS and one after...not easy at all.   I think it's important to give yourself that break (I say that now but after both my miscarriages I didn't want to hear it when the doctor said wait 3months...I nodded sweetly to them but in my mind I was like 'yeah whatever, we're trying as soon as we get home'.)  LOL in hindsight I'm glad I didn't get preggo and allowed my mind and body to just rest...my emotions over the loss didn't come immediately after the miscarriages but in the weeks after.... manifesting itself in all kinds of obsessive planning (charting, tempting, ovulation tests), researching all kinds of websites (regarding pregnancy symptoms 5 days post ovulation~okay I still do this one but not as obsessive-LOL).. and ultimately bad eating habits which led to weight gain. It took me a while to get back on track and get myself together.

So take all the time you need and fingers crossed for your next BFP!

I just wanted to let you all know; I am thinking of you all.

You are in my prayers.

ShalomCheri