Update (new update)

This has been the longest week of my life!!  The "easy" answer would be that I'm still spotting and things probably don't look good... but of course it is never that cut and dry.  I would definitely say that what I'm experiencing is more like light bleeding than true spotting, but it still hasn't been enough to need anything more than a pantiliner, so definitely not full miscarriage status yet.  Still having lots of normal pregnancy symptoms, and no real cramping.  I've taken a few pregnancy tests, and they're all still positive.  Light, but positive.  I haven't had any really dark lines since my first pregnancy, so light lines are typically not an issue for me.  The intellectual part of me knows that I should be giving up and moving on, that it is probably over.  However, the mom side of me isn't ready to give up on my baby no matter how bleak it seems, I just need to hear the fat lady sing before I can call it over.  Being in limbo all week has been really hard.  I did end up going for blood work yesterday, and will go again tomorrow.  Hopefully the answer will be pretty cut and dry, if the numbers are ambiguous I'm going to scream.  The icing on the cake is that my husband is out of town for work all week.  I really just need to have a moment to have a meltdown, but with two small kids at home, that is a luxury I simply don't have... and so I wait...

 

Last night (Wed) I passed some tissue around dinner time and knew it was over.  I felt oddly relieved.  I think after all the stress of the week, I just found some peace in knowing that I had my answer rather than the constant wonder and worry.  I still went for my blood work today just so I could hear the official word from the doctor.  Instead of doubling in 48hrs, my levels dropped by 50%.  Taking a month off to let my body recoup from the back to back losses, and hoping to get in during that time for my annual which would have otherwise been in May.  I'm hoping to get everything checked out before trying again after April's cycle. 

hi,  i am sorry you are going through this. i hope  everything works out for you. I will be praying  for you and your family. I wish you and your family the best. Hold your head up high  god wont give you more then you can  handle.  good luck and keep us posted.

Paula, I can honestly say I watch these boards everyday to see how you are. I'm TTC since 09 amd though im very frustrated for myself i find it so reassuring to see other wonan going through the same feelings and issues and I also like to see women who have had success. I am so excited and nervous for you! I know how I am when I'm thinking of every tiny little detail before i even test and it drives me crazy! So I can only imagine how you're feeling about it after you already got a BFP. you must be frustrated but i wanted to say im thinking about cha and I so hope everything goes ok. I'm crossing my fingers that you'll have smooth dailing soon.

I'm due for my 2nd IUI in two weeks (just started period on Monday. bummer) but I'm excited to see if we can get lucky this time! Trying to stay positive!

Thank you so much for keeping me in your thoughts!  Good luck to you!  Hopefully we'll both get our babies soon! 

Ohhhh..I am so sorry for your losses!  It is so emotional...hang in there!  Glad you went in for blood work anyway...that way you had a for sure answer...as hard as it is to hear!  Hope you get your sticky bean soon!!  I had a loss at the end of oct. and bam...got pregnant right away!  Wasn't expecting to get pregnant let alone that fast...our original plan was to start ttc end of Jan.  LOL!  

 

Wanted to add that it took about a week to get a neg. test after our loss in Oct.  Hugs to you!

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through that. Keep your chin up!