Cautiously optimistic...
After last month's chemical pregnancy, I wasn't sure what to expect this month. I didn't know if I'd ovulate normally, etc. However, just like clockwork, on day 14 I was definitely ovulating. Then, just like last month (and with both of my healthy pregnancies), 5 days later, I felt like I'd been hit in the chest with a baseball bat! The headaches started, extreme lightheadedness upon standing, all standard fare for my pregnancies. Last month I had all of these symptoms but I also had this underlying feeling of doom and inability to get excited. In contrast, this month I felt my "usual" excitement to take a test. It seems unfair that I get symptoms crazy early, but am unable to get a positive home test until several days after my missed period. So, to keep myself from getting discouraged, I waited until my expected period day came and went without taking a test. The other day while in Target, I bought a box so I'd be ready. Last month, the bleeding started just two days after my missed period, so I told myself I'd wait at least that long this month before testing. This morning I cracked open the tests and was disappointed when I discovered the Target brand tests were a blue line generic, I HATE those. I know they're infamous for the thin blue lines that are not truly positives. Anyway, I took the test, and sure enough staring back at me was a super faint, thin blue line. Looked very much like an evaporation line, but appeared within the 10 minutes. Figured I'd just have to wait until tomorrow and hope for a more prominent line. This damn line haunted me all day! Tonight, while out on a milk run, I decided to splurge on a First Response. Thought about waiting for first of the morning pee, but of course, decided to take it now... definitely two lines. One was faint, but definitely nothing that involved any squinting to see. So, as of now I'm cautiously optimistic. I'm sure the chemical pregnancy last month was probably just a fluke, but I'll feel better if the lines on the test get darker over the next few days! So, here we go again!
