sad update...

Thank you to all for your kind words and thoughtful words. I had to have emergency surgery on thursday because all of my symptoms were thought to be an ectopic. The doc/surgeon basically rushed me into the OR within hours of seeing me from my follow up appointment. my numbers were hovering at the same level as a few days before and with the pain I had on my side he figured my tube might burst and he did not want to risk it, he went in and found the pregnancy was in my uterus, it had stopped growing some time ago, and nothing in my tubes so at least that is the best outcome we all could hope for.

I signed the preop papers almost sure that I would wake up without a tube or missing part of it and when I woke up (after a few hours in recovery) with my tube still intact and unharmed, I could not believe it. I am still sad, in shock and trying to recover but they did a laparoscopy and a D&C so I'm really sore and bloated and just tired. Dh has been a super husband through it all. I am so grateful for that. I'm not sure why God spared me from losing a tube but I am so thankful I have hope, even if it's a small glimmer, I'll take what I can get.

I'm taking it day by day, hour by hour, I hate that this grief is waiting around the corner but with the meds I'm somehow insulated and protected from the full brunt of the pain. If anyone has any recommendations for books on grief of miscarriage please let me know. I expect to go to counseling for the next few weeks as soon as I can drive myself. I'm very grateful for you ladies and all your support, it means so much to me to know that you all care. God bless.

THank God it wasn't ectopic! That's fantastic news for your future fertility not having to worry about scar tissue or only having one tube.

I don't know of any books on grief. Someone i know suggested I attend grief counseling. Apparently there are group sessions? Do what you need to make it through. Take care, Nikki

I'm so sorry.

Thinking of you....

I miscarried then got pregnant again and had a healthy baby boy...then 5 yrs later I miscarried again and then got pregnant again...I was sadden with both miscarriages but apparently it is normal...a lot of women miscarry...at the time I thought something was wrong with me or I did something wrong...Best of Luck! You will be pregnant again and have a healthy baby before you know it!