spinning out of control... any advice?

Ok...  I'm posting here, because I'm afraid if I post on the general RNY website I'll get 'yelled' at.

I am having a hell of a time.  I'm depressed (not enough to go on meds), having difficulty with my husband, with living here and wanting to move back to the U.S. and generally being unhappy with my life situation (wth the exception of my beautiful children)

The problem is, I did sooo great through the pregnancy with weight.. only gained like 15 pounds... lost it all back plus almost 10 more by 2 .5 weeks out and have now regained almost all (possibly all, I'm scared to step on the scale) of it since then. 

I'm eating out of control... like before surgery... I can't stop it.  I'm hungry all the time... I know some of it's coming from breast feeding and needing more cals, but I certainly don't need so many more that I'm putting on weight.  My size 14s are getting tight, and I know my 12s won't fit....  I haven't tried, but know they won't.  I feel as fat as I did when I was 350 pounds.  I really don't know how to stop myself from spiraling.  There are no RNY support groups here.

Any one have any suggestions.  I'm really sort of at my wits end tonite....

I think the fact that you're posting here is a good first step!  Obviously, you can see that there is a problem.  Sounds like some post partum depression, make sure you talk to your OB about it!  As for the eating, I don't have any profound advice, but I'm sure if you can get your mood and emotions under control, the eating will follow.  Tell your husband how you're feeling, by getting it all "out there" you may feel better able to sort out the feelings and get back on the right road.  Good luck!

I don't have much advice, but i know how your feeling.  After each of my preg all i wanted was to be closer to my family and it just couldn't happen.  I would fall into a depressive state with my daughter i didn't require any meds but did turn to food which eventually landed me to 359lbs.  With my son i did eventually reachout for help with my DR and the meds did help.  I do know that once you get your mood stablized that your eating will begin to be controled again.  I am terrified of all this happening again and possible weight gain, so i am deff. feeling you.  I hope things get better for you soon.  And know your not alone and sometimes all you need is someone to talk to and feel free to PM anytime.

Tiff

Thanks Tiff and thanks Paula, you've both nailed it.  Of course it's depression.  I've been treated for depression for years ad actually this was the first pregnancy I've had without meds!  I was really happy about that, it's been a year now (1 year in about the last 15 without meds).  I really was hoping I could continue without, but it doesn't look like it. 

THe other factor is the Mirena IUD.  Had it placed about 4 weeks ago and things have been steadily getting worse.  I'm sure there's a link.  The doc reassurred me that since I'd done so well without meds andthe fact that the progesterone dose is so low, it would be ok.  Doesn't seem so.  There goes 450 Euro down the drain!  I'm going to see my doc tomorow and get her opinion than get this thing taken out, I think.

 I found this board because I'm dumping seriously - 8.5 weeks pregnant, 4th pregnancy.

I had Mirena placed twice like an idiot and I hated it.  It's hard for me to maintain weight with it and I feel "off".  It's not for everybody - unfortunately we don't know until we have it in.  

Hugs to you and hope you feel better soon.