feeling very alone right now

 thanks :) that makes me feel better. i feel like i'm gonna be a pitbull when it comes to protecting my baby. i honestly don't think i'm asking for the moon and the stars. and every little detail of the birth doesn't have to be planned out. i just want someone who will listen to me and not just boss me around and bully me into doing things i don't want to do. that is very important to me and its something i won't compromise on.

and you're right. we had a long talk (more like a meltdown on my end) but in the end some things were resolved. i think my husband understood me a little more. 

Hi Meli,

I've been following the pregnancy boards as I hope to get pregnant  once I hit goal and labs are fine.
When you talk about how your hubby is a problem solver and not emotional, it reminded me of a book I read once by John Gray called "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus". It's an older book but it's SOOO true!!! You may want to check it out- it'll give you his perspective and give your perspective to him.  Women don't want men to solve their problems, just to listen! :)
Good luck to you, it's been exciting to watch your progress!

 haha i've never actually read that book. maybe i should. the other day i was talking about me and my female friends and family and he said to me "i don't know, i don't live on venus." lol