baby's first ultrasound

 aww thank you esther :) i really hope everything continues to go well. i feel guilty for being too happy. i better be careful.

thank you for keeping up with me. i'll continue to update when things change.

Mel-
thanks for sharing some of your deepest fears and also your happiness. I'm very excited for you and love your story...it give me and others hope that it can happen. Enjoy your pregnancy girlie you and hubby deserve it.

 thank you soo much!!!!! thanks for caring about us. having this forum is so important. not being able to talk about any of this to my friends and family (or not wanting to) gets very lonely. so it helps so much to have this forum and you ladies to talk to.

So happy for you, Meli! :)

You should let yourself be happy and enjoy your pregnancy instead of worrying. I know it's easier said than done, but you deserve to be happy. Get excited :)!!! It's GREAT that your LO already has a strong heartbeat. Good sign for sure!

 thank you! i really want to be happy and excited. i'm just scared. but you're right, its a good sign.  i felt from the first 5 weeks that this one was in for the long haul. i hope i'm right. :) can't wait to finally relax and share this joy with everyone i know. june can't come soon enough!

I'm so excited for you! I didn't want to say anything in your previous post cause you said not to, but now I will say congratulations!!!

 thank youuuuu. :)

That's great news.  Seeing that little flicker on the screen for the first time lifted a huge weight off my shoulders.  I could breathe again.  I found out about my MC during an US so I was terrified the second time around. 

I was also with an RE so I got US every week for the first 12 weeks...boy did ever miss that once I graduated to the OB!

I can't remember if you're on Metformin or not but if you are, please talk to your RE and OB about staying on it.  I stayed on it for my entire pregnancy and there's tons of research available to support doing that.

 yeah i'm hoping for good news in the next u/s in 2 weeks. as long as i keep feeling these cramps and food aversion. the cramps can get intense at time and i look down and pat my lower stomach and say "you just keep letting mama know you're there". as long as i keep feeling that i feel ok.

but i am looking forward to seeing an OB and/or a midwife. i'm really looking forward to a little more hands on care.

no i'm not on metformin. haven't been on it since before surgery.

Awesome news! There is nothing quite like seeing that tiny heart beating for the first time :)