update,,, Mosaic Turner's Syndrome?

well,,  sad to say my 2nd round of IVF didn't work,,, I did however have a higher egg retrieval count (24) with increased meds and taking DHEA. I was freaking out about all the eggs,, invisioning having 24 children, he he he.. but only 18 were good enough to put sperm in,, from what i understand there were 12 embryos made,, and one stopped developing ,,, so 11 embryos,  they put in 2 fresh beautiful ones,, (this was all around Valentines day), but they didnt stick... ,, so sad,, my husband and i just got back from our trip to Ireland and that was beautiful and it was a good time to reconnect... the day after we got back we went to our follow up appt. with our fertility doc to see if she knew anything we didn't,,, she was very glad to know we still had 9 embryos left to do frozen cycles with,,,even if they were'nt quite as pretty as the fresh ones she put in,  but then she dropped this bomb on me... she said i may be a Mosaic Turner's Syndrome with my chromosomes,, i was like huh?  then i was like, hmmmm,,, I always wondered why i had simion's creases in my hands (p.s. i'm a NICU nurse and so i was like,, that's wierd all along) ,, plus i wondered why i never developed breast tissue (had to have an augmentation) (also, i've had swollen legs since childhood) ,,, then when i went home to look up what the condition was,, apparently like 1 in 3,000 women have it) it messes with your x chromosome,, so some of the eggs may be good and some may be messed up... I have decided not to get tested for the chromomsomal issue until i actually get pregnant (so i can be armed and followed carefully) or we get through all 9 embryos with no pregnancy,, she said i should be able to carry a baby fine (again,, if this is what i have),,, so if we don't get pregnant with ours maybe we'll adopt an embryo or go with full on adoption,,, i was bitter for a while,, thinking what? am i not even a real woman, but get stuck with all the stinky stuff like pms and periods?   but i'll have to think of it this way,, God wants me around for a reason (apparently t's a miracle i made it to birth from my mom) and He's good, and has good plans for me,, whatever they may be. sandy

Well!!!! I have two things to say. I am so sorry for all the ups and downs I know it takes an emotional toll on u personally and also on relationship so please take all the opportunity you can with hubby and keep that fireburning. You'll be surprised and it will happen by it self thats the way God works. Second, I love you for keeping that positive outlook like Job in the bible, never curse God though things seem like they are so wrong, he could just be testing your character and faith stay strong, and he will reward you handsomely, I am a witness. This post is so touching and I feel so happy that even though times seem hard, you still love and trust God almighty.

GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU AND OPEN YOUR WOMB AND
BLESS YOU WITH FRUIT ABUNDANTLY TILL YOU ASK HIM TO STOP IN JESUS NAME!!!!!!! AMEN

thanks, i needed that blessing :)

I am so sorry that you are having troubles. I know being a nurse working with babies must be especially hard. Praying for you. When your little miracle makes it into this world
I hope this will all just become a distant memory for you