Feeling big :-S

So... I'm 11w4d today and I'm now wearing maternity jeans.  I have a decent size panni from dropping 150 lbs already - yay extra skin.  Now that it's starting to fill up with the baby I'm really feeling big.  Like ugh big!  I look in the mirror and part of me just goes back in my mind to "ugh... i'm fat!"  And of course the other part of me remembers that I'm pregnant!  My wifey says that I look beautiful and that I dont really look bigger.  But I can tell in the mirror and in the pants I can no longer wear.

UGH!  I know this getting bigger is a good thing right now, but what a mind screw *really wanted to say something else that starts w/an F*  I spent my entire adult life being super morbidly obese prior to these last 2 years.  I'm truly grateful for my WLS and being healthy again.  But it's srsly a mind screw getting bigger.  OH... and I have never been a fan of low rider jeans.  Maternity jeans by definition are very low riders.  Yuck!  I constantly feel like my jeans are falling off my butt, but they're not... these mat jeans are the kind w/the full panel that goes all the way up over my belly.  I know I'll get used to them once my bump gets bigger.  But OY... mind screw!!!

Congrats! I can just imagine the mind @#$& that it plays on you! I'm sure your doing just fine, keep it up. You will get more comfy in the maternity clothes as you get bigger Congrats again!
Oh, and post a pic!

Thx but I'm SO not going to post a pic. I just look fat... not pg!

Yeah, those 1st few months are hard when you look more like you gained extra weight than looking like your pregnant! Don't fret to much, you will get there and I'm sure you look great but just don't see it that way!

At 11 weeks with Sage I rememeber being super bloated and fat looking/feeling also.  it will start to feel like a baby soon enough!

I'm sure it doesn't feel like it to you, but HOLY COW you're almost 32 weeks!

You're not alone on this! I have to keep reminding myself it's baby! I know the truth but the mind sees something different and it messes with you big time! Now that it's visually clear I'm pregnant It's not as much of a OMFG when I look at myself in the mirror. Once the pants didn't fit my mind went into freak out mode! I have a serious panni from losing 200+ lbs. Everyone says I'm looking great and I'm narrow, it's all just belly! Maternity jeans do feel like they're falling down all the time, lol
You can always put a sign on your mirror that reminds you that IT'S BABY!!!
I think we all struggle with it after such a big weight loss! Hang in there!! 
I know it's messing with your head but I'm thrilled your baby's growing and getting bigger!!!

Thanks, Manda.  I knew y'all would totally get me here.  The women on thebump have no clue about this.

Maternity jeans suck. I totally can't wear them.  I just get the jeggings in a size or two bigger and they work much better. It also helps with the panni if you get a maternity band, it just rounds things out better and then you feel like you look more pregnant rather than just fatter. It really does screw with the mind, I know!

yeah.. i tried wearing the maternity jeans this am... le suck!  then i tried some of my jeans from a frickin month ago w/the bella band.  uncomfy after an hour.  And now I'm comfy in some yoga pants.  Not the most professional when i'm going to see a customer, but oh well... thankfullly, they have a casual environment.

I called my mom and told her I'm uncomfortable, feel fat, and don't fit into any of my pants anymore.  She said "awww.... it will only get worse!"  Bummah!