Hi again...

Hi Ladies,

It's been a couple months since I came around here and I wanted to catch you up on what's going on with us.  We did our last AI cycle with Clomid a couple months ago and BFN (total of 5 cycles after the MC in Nov.)  Now we're stepping up the aggressive ladder and we're starting IVF later this week.  Gratefully, my insurance is pretty damn good and I have enough coverage to pay for up to 2 IVF cycles (if we need both.)  Fert docs say that everything looks really good for me except of course the age of my eggs (I'm now 41.)  So off to IVF-land we go.  Docs said I have btwn a 15-20% chance of a viable pregnancy with IVF.  UGH!  I would have thought my chances would have been a lot higher.  I mean they're implanting 5 fertilized eggs in me.  But again with the age of my eggs, I only have up to 20% chance of 1 viable baby.  So we'll see....
If we don't get pg within 2 IVF cycles then we are going to move into adoption.

I've been doing a LOT of prayer and am now seeing a therapist who specializes in WLS patients (she herself had RNY 10 yrs ago.)  I found myself doing a bit of emo-eating over the past few  months because this TTC journey is hard as H-E- double hockey sticks!  But I've pretty much got that under control again. 

I definitely want to carry our child and even moreso, I definitely want to be a mother.  So we're focusing on welcoming in our child however he/she comes into our lives (vs. TTC.) 

Hope all is well with all of you!

THanks for the update Maryn! I've been thinking about you. I wish you much luck with your IVF cycle(s) and am keeping my fingers crossed for a sticky baby for you! I totally understand the desire to carry a child and have been going through some emotional crap myself too since my ectopic. I too have been eating pretty bad lately due to the emotional stuff.
Please keep us posted!
-Nikki

I've been thinking about you a lot! My heart goes out to you, you've been through so much!
I'll continue to keep you in my prayers and I really hope you have a good IVF experience! Whatever the means I have faith you'll become a mommy and you'll have the blessing you deserve! Tons of good thoughts and vibes sent your way! {{HUGS}}

maryn!.. nice to see you... i wish you well

  & 

Thanks for posting...I've been thinking of you and Jill. Prayers to you for a sticky bean.

It's so good to read a post from you! 

I'll be saying a little prayer and keeping all my fingers and toes crossed that things work out for you... either with IVF or adoption.

((hugs))

I hope everything goes the way you want it to!! I completely understand how rough it is going through stupid infertility!  :(

It will be all worth it in the end!    Miss you!!  :)

Hey chika! Been thinking about u. Hope u get that BFP soon
Jess

Hey! Good to hear from you! I wish you luck this week with the IVF!

Tina