Anyone ever afraid to POAS??

I'm terrified of having to POAS. I've been really down lately and AF was due two days ago and I dread with every fiber of my being to POAS!I know I need to and just get it over with, I don't take the negative tests well and it makes me feel like I'm a failure as a woman! Anyone else go through this? I guess all those years os bfn's it starts to feel hopeless after a while!
I know that its in God's hands but it's frustrating when you take the advise of others, do everything you know to do and get your hopes up only to be let down....again! I know you ladies can relate.
I just need to suck it up and POAS and let it be what it'll be!
I'm just so tired of letdown and heartbreak and it only makes me more depressed. Usually when I buy the test, I start my period the same day. Grrr! Test is bought and I will pee this weekend! Hoping and praying for the best and I know that even if it is negative we'll keep trying!

I don't even like taking the ovalation test much less a pregnancy test I am scared I won't ovalate. So I understand Praying for a BFP and sending lots of Baby dust!!

I had my son who's now eight.We tried for six years and nothing.I have gastric bypass wait 19 months and started trying and in four months pregnant.when I was late I was like no not me but low and behold bam I was pregnant.Went into premature labor one day shy of 25 weeks had two twin girls lost one day after and one made it 12 days before passing.To make along story short I want another so bad but I'm afraid that it wont happen or it will take way longer then this time.

Its all in gods hands it will happen i promise he has a reason for everything I promise!

Hugs to you!

Thank you! You're right, it's in God's hands and either way life goes on and we keep trying! It's scary when month after month I g my hopes up only to have them crushed. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers! You've been through so much and you're so positive and encouraging! I have faith that all of us who struggle for our miracles will one day get to hold our precious little ones.

Have you peed yet?  (will take over for Alexa LOL)

I'll be Peeing on a stick first thing tomorrow. I need to know one way or another! I know life will go on with either choice.