Individual Journies

I have already had more trouble in this pregnancy than I ever thought I would and I’m only 15-16 wks! (Stupid EDD changes a lot lol) I have hyperemesis and am sick and nauseous pretty much all day every day, have passed out bc I get so dizzy, have low blood pressure, low potassium, and low iron, was on a PICC/nutrition line until they removed it last week, can’t drive or take a shower anymore by myself bc of my tendency to pass out at random times, etc. I’m still happy to be pregnant, but man does it suck!

And I like having a place to complain/commiserate/talk to people who understand what I’m going through, because no one in real life that I know has had a kid! Other than my mom, I have no one to talk to about all of this and it makes me feel really isolated. We’re all different with different experiences, but it’s still nice to know others out there at least kinda understand what I’m going through.

I’m replying to myself lol… I try really hard not to be bitter or angry about what I’ve gone through and not be too jealous of all the pregnant women who have easy pregnancies, because that wouldn’t help anything. It’s hard though. It really is. I just want so badly to be bubbly and normal and glowy and instead I look and feel like crap most days.