Feeling guilty

I am almost 2 years out and have lost 130 pounds. I'm scared to death of gaining weight. This is my 2nd pregnancy, but 1st band baby. I was 275lbs with my 1st child and only gained 3lbs. My baby comes first always, but I can't go back to that old person. I had 8.1 cc's in my band and the NP insisted on taking out some fluid. I'm now at 6 cc's. I feel so ashamed and selfish. Again, I want what's best for my baby. Just having some issues.

dont be , i gained 55 pds  i didnt plan on that much but i wanted take home twins....im 3 wks pp and only 9 pds from pre pg weight

Thank you! That's awesome!

Dont feel bad I was the same way, I was pissed when my doc pulled all my fuid out! I wanted to yell at him "So I did all that work for NOTHING!!"
I have gained about 33lbs so far and I still have a few months to go, good luck!

Thanks guys for understanding. I'm feeling better about everything and looking forward to enjoying this pregnancy. Most of all I can't wait to look pregnant and not just fatter like I did with my last one. Good luck and Best wishes to everyone. 
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                                                               I did cry in the office.