Filthy Friday!!!!

So today I did not want to get out of bed this morning, but I did anyway, mistake number 1. My daughter was supposed to go to school this morning and she was whinning that she didnt want to go, tough luck I said. So we are getting ready for the bus standing in our doorway and the bus pulls up 5 minutes early and there was now way I was going to be able to make it to the end of the drive way in time. The bus drove away. Ahh So I know that the bus has to go around the block and comes back around to the over pass, so I have a great idea, I run down the street toward the over pass, half way there the bus pulls up and waits. I must mention that I suffer from Fibromyalgia, Lupus and I am 29 weeks pregnant, but I wanted to make that bus so I ran or tried too. I get to the bus and put my daughter on the first step and the bus driver says " it's not her day to go to school, it's A days" ....... My daughter goes to school on B days, which means she goes Tuesdays, Thursdays and every other Friday. Sooooo we walked home and I have been suffering with increased back pain for the rest of the day, and then while making lunch I leaned over the stove top and slightly burned my belly on it....... So needless to say I should have stayed in BED !!! Oh Well tomorrow is another day, here's hoping !!!

I love me my mani/pedi days!!!

Life has been wonderful since Landen and I got home. I had my c-section on Sunday evening and we were both released on Tuesday night. My rant- the ASSHOLE nurses I dealt with in the hospital that had soooo much to do with my not being able to have faith in myself to breastfeed my baby. It's a long story, but they were BEYOND forceful and treated me like crap and I had a rough emotional time especially after they wanted to release me on Tues morn but wanted him to stay because I wasn't getting the chance to keep up on his schedule. The poor guy was wasted and didn't want to do anything other than sleep and they were yanking my breasts and poking and prodding at him until I finally said enough is enough...bring me some formula. I was planning on trying to get back on the train when we got home, but the stress just got to me and we decided that he was eating the formula very well, so he is now and Enfamil baby and is eating, burping, farting, and pooping like a normal child should. And he did manage to get some colostrum from me since he had that seedy looking poopy they associate with the breast feeding.

Oh and my mother in law leaves tomorrow...not that I didn't appreciate her help (oh wait thats right she sat on my computer the entire time she was here and didn't help) but I get my house back. My mom and dad are still in town til Tuesday and they have been a blessing to have around!

I'm beyond ready to get my own household back under my control and start to work on schedules for us all again! Other than that- Landen has captured my heart. He's beyond laid back and barely fusses. I'm thankful he's eating great and he even regained 2ozs he lost while in the hospital...started at 7lb3oz and left 6lb13oz....oh and his jaundice is going away and his pediatrician says he is a beyond happy and healthy little boy :)

I'm sorry you had ****ty nurses in the hospital.  If you still want to try to bf...it's not too late.  Talk to a lactation nurse or someone - they'll help you out and it will be  an enjoyable experience for both you and Landen.  The weight loss in the beginning is perfectly normal and has nothing to do with breast feeding or formula.  Those first few days in the hospital, you wouldn't have had much anyways since your milk hadn't come in yet. 

Whatever you decide, I wish you luck...just wanted to say that with the proper help, you can still bf if you wanted to.

Congrats!

Holly,

I might have had 2 or 3 nurses in passing that were pretty decent, but the rest of them spoiled the bunch. They weren't unhappy cus he was loosing weight, but he was extremely hard to stimulate and he would NOT wake up to nurse almost at all. I was really shocked that they were still feeding me narcotics and caffeine and wanting me to feed him. He was just straight up exhausted and traumatized, but they went about it all the wrong way.

I thought about a lactation consult, but he's doing terrific on the formula, so I'm letting it be. We're still bonded and that won't change, so I've given the breast an ok to be on the shelf lol

Thank you for the encouragement!! Hugs
Kerri

Hi Kerri, please don't feel like a failure or anything like that for bottle feeding. You did try but it just does not work for everyone. Formula has come a long way these days, nutrition-wise. And now everyone can help you feed him. I bet his sisters just love feeding him bottles. You did NOT do anything wrong! Give yourself sooooooooo much more credit! XOXOX

Chelle,

You're so right! The girls love holding him and watching him eat. They haven't been given the burping pleasures yet cus I'm so nervous he's going to get backed up or something, so the adults do that. I give women who can breastfeed props, but it's a TOUGH task. I had a little bit of a hard time, but after I see how much he's content and still growing with the formula I feel a 1000 times better. I also haven't had the best nutrition since I had him and don't have much of an appetite at all right now, so I was feeling guilty about that also. I just threw in the towel, but like my mom told me- she tried for a month to breastfeed me and I screamed bloody murder- it's just not for everyone, but I did give it a try. I felt a little robbed after having my C and then this, but he's happy and healthy and the rest is just perks! Thank you so much for being so supportive...it really does mean a lot to me to hear all the kind words offered here! Big hugs!

Thanks again!!
Kerri

 Battling horrible nausea.  Dr has me on 3 anti-nausea meds so my vomiting is down.  I can work now, except for last night when I got ill the last 1.5hrs of my shift.  My nausea is more towards the afternoon and evening and I wor****il 8pm.

I called in refills on my anti-nausea meds today and the pharmacy said the dr denied them because they want to see me. I go in for a mandatory weigh in on Wednesday to make sure I'm not losing anything.  My mom is a critical care nurse.  She has made it her responsibility to make sure I'm drinking and eating even if I don't feel like it.  I'm actually retaining water and gained 2lbs.  I don't think I can make it until Wednesday without meds.  I have my 1st OB appointment scheduled but it's literally a month away.

I hope I can make it thru the rest of my shift tonight and the weekend without getting so ill.  I just wonder why they ration out the anti nausea meds like their pain killers.  I'm trying to work, not stay home. 

my dr does it too.. its an insurance approval issue.. they are very very expensive and they dont like to cover them

 My insurance will pay for them.  I spoke to them today and got an exemption in the system to pay for all anti nausea for 3 months due to pregnancy.  It took 30 seconds.  They told me they dont like seeing pregnant women suffer.  Apparently my OB does.

There are some anti-nausea lollipops that some people have talked about in the past.  You should google them and see if they'd work for you.  It's crazy your dr doesn't give you enough meds to at least get to your next appt rather than leave you hanging for almost a week.  I'd definitely recommend a talk with him when you see him.  It's fine if he wants to see you...but keep your meds up until that time.

Good luck.