I think maybe it's postpartum....

First of all, Thank you everyone for your kind responses to my birth story and pictures of my boys. They are so precious and everything I've ever wanted in life. I am also very lucky that they are so damn cute!!!! :) The nurses at the hospital kept telling me that I made pretty babies! LOL.

I also should note that I am not having any regrets about my tubal. My life is very full right now and better than I ever could've imagined.

So.... why the hell can't I stop crying? Is there some degree of normalcy in this? Is it just some of the hormones draining? My anxiety levels are through the roof! I remember with Tristan that I had some anxiety but I figured it was first time mom stuff and I didn't need meds for it. I also lived in anxiety hell for awhile but it was obviously managable. So why am I going through this again. Crying for no reason.... or stupid little reasons... so anxious that I can't let Keiran out of my sight... 

I have a doctor's appointment in the morning at 10:45am... I will probably talk to him about it... I just am wondering if some of this is normal 6 days out... or if I need to medicate now before it gets worse. I am bf some. I pump about 4 ounces a day (which is all I produce) so I don't know if that has any bearing on this.... 

Any advice is welcome.  

its probley a bit normal.. your body is going thru a huge hormonal shift... i think it would be a good idea to mention it tomm and see what the dr thinks... good luck and let us know!

That's what I am thinking/hoping. Maybe if I could tough it out for a week or two it'll go away on it's own.

Thanks

Hi, I'm sorry you are going through this. (hugs)
Be sure you are keeping up on your vitamins, B-12 especially, because a b-12 deficiancy can cause depression and mood swings. I hope you hang in there and it all gets better soon :)

I think it is normal 6 days out. But you should still mention it to your doctor. It takes a while for everything to settle down. It's hardest on me when I don't get sleep, then everything just goes downhill. Try to rest as much as possible and talk to friends whenever you can, I think that helps too.

That's what I am hoping. I just don't remember it being this bad with my first.  If it's only going to be be for a couple of weeks, I can tough it out... but I don't want to mess with postpartum depression.

I would mention it but I felt the same way for about 2 weeks.

I suffered very badly with PPD after my son was born, it started off with crying and developed much further into irrational thoughts and behaviour and all the while I had no insight into the fact that I may have been depressed. I thought everything I was experiencing was "normal". I was finally diagnosed 6 moths later.  

You are self aware and it's great you're going to talk to your doctor about it. It may be "baby blues" or could develop further. The fact that you are on here talking about it and have an appt with the Dr. is great. Good luck for tomorrow's appointment,
Lastly, it's great you're open to taking meds if you need them.
Becky

Thanks for your comment.

I got severely depressed after my second miscarriage in 2007 and my mother, who is annoyingly opinionated about not taking meds, convinced me not to take them. I lost my son in august, it was february before I disolved in tears at the doctors office and got some help...

Let me tell you... I will never go through that again!

I am feeling a little better today. Still some tears but I am open to toughing it out a little longer in case it is something normal.