Can't stop crying today

I have a 5 year old and had a very easy non eventful (from the baby perspective) pregnancy with him, I'm currently at most 4 weeks along with baby #2 and have a completly different life than when I carried my son. My first husband (sons father) was a total dead beat, and was always doing something to stress me out, he was abusive to me during my pregnancy and about a month before my due date I moved out and he moved another woman in before I delivered. Well since then I reunited with a friend from childhood we rekindled our friendship and it grew into love and we married last March. By deadbeat ex had totally dropped out of mine and my son's life and we haven't seen him since Blythe (my son) was 5 months old...anyway my current husband is wonderful, he had totally accepted my son as his and my son loves him too. He spoils me and had made it possible for me to stay home to raise our kids. He is excited about our pregnancy, Elaited is a better word actually, but he works alot, and works away from home. He is on a 15/3 rotation, so basicly he is gone for 15 days, and home for 3. So once the baby comes home it's going to be me by myself pretty much all the time. I knew this logicly when I went off BC but now that i'm testing positive and the hormones are raging...I can't stop thinking about how hard this will be. Luckily both sets of Grandparents are right in the same town, but I really had to lean heavily on my parents with my older son, and I don't want to have to do that again this time. I have these moments of sheer terror. I guess it's normal but I needed to reach out here.
I also can't stop obcessing about this pregnancy and none of my girlfriends are pregnant so it's like, nobody cares to hear my constant baby talk...I do get to talk to my husband thoughout the day and that helps, but i'm worried about burning him out, he says that's not possible, and he loves talking about our baby and always will, but I'm not sure he knows how long the next 9 months is going to seem. well thanks for reading this I hope I don't end up driving you all crazy as well....

Congrats on your pg.  Your new DH sounds like a wonderful man.  His 15/3 work schedule does seem challenging especially when baby #2 comes into the picture.  But remember that nothing is impossible.  You are going to OK and I'm your 5 yo son will just love being a big brother and will want to help out.  You're not alone.  You can come here to read and post as much baby talk as you like.  That's what we're here for.  To learn from each other and to support each other.  The women on this board are super supportive.

Good luck to you and your family and here's to a healthy 9 months and beyond!

yes they are VERY supportive!!

We're all here for you!! You can do it!!!

I have been emotional these past few weeks too. I wonder if the holidays seem to bring out the sad side when they are all over. It will get better big hugs

I her you loud and clear, whilst my husband doesn't work the same schedule, he is a workaholic and works six 12hr shifts a week. I am a stay at home mom and we are very comfortable financially, but that means nothing when faced with looking after the baby on your own.

The first time around (6 yrs ago) - I had a hard time accepting that my husband worked so hard, and that he wanted me to be happy and enjoy being a mom and raising our son. Now though, I truly get it. I already have planned to have a nanny 3 days a week (I am originally from the UK and have no family whatsoever here). Also, I will be taking any help I am given - from friends. I always used to "manage" on my own before.

As for the grandparents, you have them in your town and maybe you worry that you will be relying on them, but remember you have two sets now.  - If they helped before, they will again, remember, you are their daughter - think about what how strongly we feel for our children.

Also, the board is here for you too. -
I hope this message comes across with genuine love and support for you. , Becky x

Thank you everyone, i'm feeling much better and more confident today. I think yesterday was just an emotional day, I'm so appreciateive of OH.com, and have been ever since I first considered WLS, I'm so glad that there is a section for women like us who have been through what we have all been through