I wish I was stronger
I was prescribed Clomid CD3-7 this month. I am currently on CD15 and have not had a positive OPK yet. I called my Fertility doctor and they were confused as to why I never went back in for monitoring. I explained that I could not afford the monthly monitoring and we would try on our own with the Clomid for one month and go in during the second month if nothing happened. Well, the receptionist told me the doctor does not generally do that, and monitoring is pretty much mandatory with the Clomid.
So with that, she told me she wants me to come in tomorrow and get an ultrasound to check my follicles and get bloodwork done. She told me the total cost will be $230. I felt my stomach drop. I knew it would be expensive to get the monitoring done which is why I decided to wait it out one month atleast. Well apparently this is not an option.
I just told my husband and he is pretty upset. I feel like such a failure. While I am surrounded with people who are getting pregnant left and right, we have just decided to not give Christmas gifts this year so we can go through with fertility treatment.
This couldn't have come at a better time since my birthday is on Thanksgiving and I am having a party on Friday night with all of my closest friends. I am really not in the mood to celebrate and money is now going to be tight until when and if we get pregnant.
This Thanksgiving I will know what i am thankful for, and it's certainly not all of what we have both been through in the past almost 7 months.
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So with that, she told me she wants me to come in tomorrow and get an ultrasound to check my follicles and get bloodwork done. She told me the total cost will be $230. I felt my stomach drop. I knew it would be expensive to get the monitoring done which is why I decided to wait it out one month atleast. Well apparently this is not an option.
I just told my husband and he is pretty upset. I feel like such a failure. While I am surrounded with people who are getting pregnant left and right, we have just decided to not give Christmas gifts this year so we can go through with fertility treatment.
This couldn't have come at a better time since my birthday is on Thanksgiving and I am having a party on Friday night with all of my closest friends. I am really not in the mood to celebrate and money is now going to be tight until when and if we get pregnant.
This Thanksgiving I will know what i am thankful for, and it's certainly not all of what we have both been through in the past almost 7 months.
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Eleni,
I hope you learn some really awesome news at your appt tomorrow and that it makes the money soooooo worth it!
I don't know what my DH and I will do if after WLS I still struggle with infertility. We certainly can't afford treatment. My cycle hasn't regulated yet since my surgery, despite a promising start. Hopefully its just my body going through changes, but I am really focused on it and worry is always in the back of my mind.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! I have a feeling things are going to work out just fine :)
-Nikki
I hope you learn some really awesome news at your appt tomorrow and that it makes the money soooooo worth it!
I don't know what my DH and I will do if after WLS I still struggle with infertility. We certainly can't afford treatment. My cycle hasn't regulated yet since my surgery, despite a promising start. Hopefully its just my body going through changes, but I am really focused on it and worry is always in the back of my mind.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! I have a feeling things are going to work out just fine :)
-Nikki
I had Clomid 2-6 this time and am on CD14 and haven't had a positive OPK either. Last month I Ovulated about a week later than I was supposed to. My Dr isn't doing any monitoring. The line on the OPK started getting darker, but didn't get dark enough yet. Good luck! It will get better! You are NOT a failure! There is no better Christmas gift than what you'll have when this process is over! You can PM me if you want. I'm not as far along in the process as you, but it seems we're in the same spot right now.
I just wanted to wish you good luck. I know just how hard this struggle truly is. Stay strong. I have 2 failed IVF cycles under my belt, and am getting ready to start my third one. So I completley understand when you say you feel like a failure. But you are not.
We are not doing Christmas gifts this year either. The money situation makes things even more stressful, but you find the things to cut out and ways to make it work...
I hope your birthday wish comes true!!!
Renee*
We are not doing Christmas gifts this year either. The money situation makes things even more stressful, but you find the things to cut out and ways to make it work...
I hope your birthday wish comes true!!!
Renee*
Eleni, I totally feel and understand your situation. We tried Clomid and on our own for almost 4 years before biting the bullet and spending most of our income on a fertility specialist. I wasable to get Clomid and not be monitored thru my regular OB at that time as most fertility specialists did want monitoring. We started at a low dose and inreased with each failed month which was 8 tries total over 2 years since the OB only wanted us to do so many in a row to try and avoid cysts. If you have a regular OB, maybe try them to go on Clomid? I wish you luck and it is a very emotional journey (the additional hormones you take don't help either) but hang in there!
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