major complex

I know Im not the only one with this issue, when I look down at my "big ol pregnant belly", honestly I see my "old belly". Having hard time with this because thats all I see, is my old weight. I have gained only 12lbs this time and it feels like 120.
Am I being petty? No, I am not. Prior pregnancies I never had the "baby belly". Whats really hard is going to the dr, and instead of him telling me to not to gain anymore weight, he is telling me to gain a few more. THAT screws with your hread.
Instead of HIGH BP's i have extrememly LOW BP's. like 120/52 compared to priors they were like 140/85-90. Am i fishing for compliments? hell no!
People ask me how much weight I have gained, and I grumble and say the 12lbs or whatever and they are like "WOW wish thats all I gained" and I want to tell them "yeah you thinks its great but to me, mentally, its to much" I am not worried about the vanity part of pregnancy, GOD knows that!!! All I can think of lately is how much my pouch has stretched, will I be able to lose the weight afterwards, etc...Why? Thats how I gained all my weight before, was after each pregnancy.
I know im being paranoid, just wondering if anyone is willing to talk about it. I am in other pregnancy groups like on Cafemom, and they just dont get it.
sorry for rambling

I feel the same way..I did not plan on this pregnancy and although I am grateful and will love her with all my heart, I hate that I am pregnant after losing all that weight. I have only gained 1 lb and I am a week away from 5 months, but I do have that huge belly and I feel like I used to be...so I get ya! What I hate is people who say "Oh..after all that you went thru..now you'll gain all that weight back.." I feel like punching them...I ended up with a major eating disorder after the surgery, 2 years ago and I still ahve a real hard time eating adn now even worse. People keep saying not to be stingy..its all about the baby..and I KNOW that, but it really does stink! I guess I rambled too LOL!! I'm glad you posted this!!

thats my biggest complaint too...about how people will sit there and say "after you lost all that weight now your gaining it back", i too want to punch em in the nose...
i have a problem eating not from a disorder or issues, but since i have been pregnant, i cant eat the "good stuff". Bariatric surgeon informed me that it was normal and he and his staff have helped me find alternatives, i want the vegetable and no meat, at all. Protein shakes make me sicker than a dog.
Went to the ER one day, the midwife told me that all the gastric bypass patients she has had were pissed off because they were pregnant. I actually wasnt. I was more concerned about having a healthy baby. yes i turned her in and she isnt allowed to see me and she was suspended from being a "midwife" for a month in the dr practice, she just got to do nursing duties...
BELIEVE me this wasnt a planned pregnancy but i embraced it, through every little issue that was thrown in. NOW i just wish he would get here so i can see him and finally be able to see how worth it it was to have him.
As for the complex belly problem, yeah, im trying to figure out how in the hell i did survive all those years being as big as i was? just this 12lbs or whatever, is killing me. cant breathe cant sleep tired out by going upstairs, back hurts from the stretching on the front, and that isnt even from being pregnant.. NOT TO MENTION, have to regain my balance again just like i had to after i had my panni done, i feel like im going to topple over.

Wowie... glad you are not working with that midwife anymore! I'm nervous about the weight gain too. We're TTC starting this sunday! I still have 25 lbs to release to get to my goal weight and I'm 40. So my obgyn wants me pg sooner rather than later and my bari surgeon is totally on board for pg now. So here we go.....

 I totally hear you!  I am 15 weeks into an unplanned pregnancy (got pg 9 months out of surgery) and am in a panic about regain.  It feels totally selfish.  I went to the doctor for my amnio this morning and the nurse was like, "You're up a pound.  Perfect!" but even that one pound made me feel awful.  I will love this baby so much and I know it will be totally worth it but I share your pain.  I am dreading being "fat" again.  

I thank god that babies are so resilient and that he is measuring perfectly and that my labs came back very healthy, because I am totally having eating issues.

I would be happy to talk about it any time.  It is hard because I am so many friends who are TTC and can't and I know they don't want to hear about my body image issues.

WOW do I totally get how you feel!!!!! I am having such a hard time accepting my prego belly as just that, a baby belly and not my fat belly. I tell my DH that I feel so fat and depressed over it at times and he doesn't understand. He just says, "you're not fat, you're pregnant". DUH I know I am pregnant but since my surgery in 2006 I have been conditioning my brain to lose weight and now I have to gain weight???? It really pays games with your head I just try to remembr that Logan needs to be healthy and if that means I have to gain a little weight to get him that way then I will. Besides, compared to my Sister who gained 60 with her pregnancy, I can handle losing the 7 lbs I have gained so far LOL I have lost over 200 lbs, 7 more ain't no thang!

ok yes the babys dad is an butthole, but tonight when he was here he made me feel good. weird i know. He walks in the door and sees me straighton doesnt say a word, i turn to the side. HOLY CRAP!!! YOUR HUGE IN A GOOD WAY!!!My boy is getting big!!  i say yep he is. so he came over to "provoke the native" and he got this weird look on his face im like what? He goes that is NOTHING but baby! im like no it is not. He says YES it is! he goes you havent gained weight anywhere else but in the tummy area, oh and yeah your boobs got bigger..
he means well, brought a smile to my face, especially about the boobs. (there is an inside joke with that)