Getting ready for 1st insemination next month!
Thanks Leila. If it's meant to be, it'll happen....I just sort of wish if it wasn't meant to be, that I'd quit getting pregnant and bashing my head on the wall. A little bit of my heart and hope dies with each mc. I can't quit trying to get pg...because if I don't try, it's very unlikely to happen...so I have to try....but if it isn't going to work, then I wish the trying was futile. I hope that makes sense?
No problems getting pregnant or being pregnant w/Khaled...which is why it's been so hard to understand everything going on now. I had a perfect pregnancy with Khaled, only gained 16 pounds (he was 9 lb 12 oz of that!) etc.
The main thing that held us back was more my husband's choice than mine. He didn't want me to get pregnant again at my former weight because he was afraid it'd cause health problems. I didn't have any health problems other than being fat...but he was afraid it'd cause problems, plus that I'd gain more weight. Unfortunately, I would fuss a little about it, but I wouldn't really fight about it, because in a way, I felt that maybe I didn't really deserve another baby because I was fat, or maybe he didn't want another one with me because I was fat.
The years went by, my weight didn't change...then when I was 37 (my son was 10) I was diagnosed w/a myoma fibroid. The dr (idiot) told me to to take birth control pills to shrink it and come back and see her in a year. I did - didn't question her, she was highly recommended by the med unit at work - and came back in a year only to find out the fibroid had doubled in size. I later found out from a different dr that the bc was the worst thing she could have done because myoma fibroids are 'fed' by hormones, which is all the bc is is hormones...so it had a year of feasting while I was thinking it was shrinking. I don't know what cereal box she got her medical license off of to say that the bc pills would make it shrink rather than grow...but I'd still like to smack her a good one.
She told me that it was inoperable, that my choices were to continue the bc to control the bleeding, live with the bleeding, or have a hysterectomy. Of course I Ieft her office in tears, which panicked DH who called me on my way home to see how it went. He met me at the house and I told him what she said, he insisted on a 2nd opinion. I saw another dr (not an ob/gyn surgeon, just an ob/gyn) who agreed that it was a myoma fibroid, but that it was definitely operable but she couldn't do it since she wasn't a surgeon. She referred me to a good surgeon who said he could remove it. He also said that if it had of been removed when it was first diagnosed, it would have been removed laproscopically, but by the time I saw him it had to be removed via open surgery because it was so big.
In the interim waiting for the different appointments to find out about that surgery, I decided to go ahead w/the WLS, did that (only took a month to see the dr and schedule the surgery...my insurance has no hoops to jump through overseas if your BMI is over 40), then had the fibroid removed a month after WLS. By the time I did the two surgeries and spent my post WLS time waiting to ttc...I was 39, almost 40.
No problems getting pregnant or being pregnant w/Khaled...which is why it's been so hard to understand everything going on now. I had a perfect pregnancy with Khaled, only gained 16 pounds (he was 9 lb 12 oz of that!) etc.
The main thing that held us back was more my husband's choice than mine. He didn't want me to get pregnant again at my former weight because he was afraid it'd cause health problems. I didn't have any health problems other than being fat...but he was afraid it'd cause problems, plus that I'd gain more weight. Unfortunately, I would fuss a little about it, but I wouldn't really fight about it, because in a way, I felt that maybe I didn't really deserve another baby because I was fat, or maybe he didn't want another one with me because I was fat.
The years went by, my weight didn't change...then when I was 37 (my son was 10) I was diagnosed w/a myoma fibroid. The dr (idiot) told me to to take birth control pills to shrink it and come back and see her in a year. I did - didn't question her, she was highly recommended by the med unit at work - and came back in a year only to find out the fibroid had doubled in size. I later found out from a different dr that the bc was the worst thing she could have done because myoma fibroids are 'fed' by hormones, which is all the bc is is hormones...so it had a year of feasting while I was thinking it was shrinking. I don't know what cereal box she got her medical license off of to say that the bc pills would make it shrink rather than grow...but I'd still like to smack her a good one.
She told me that it was inoperable, that my choices were to continue the bc to control the bleeding, live with the bleeding, or have a hysterectomy. Of course I Ieft her office in tears, which panicked DH who called me on my way home to see how it went. He met me at the house and I told him what she said, he insisted on a 2nd opinion. I saw another dr (not an ob/gyn surgeon, just an ob/gyn) who agreed that it was a myoma fibroid, but that it was definitely operable but she couldn't do it since she wasn't a surgeon. She referred me to a good surgeon who said he could remove it. He also said that if it had of been removed when it was first diagnosed, it would have been removed laproscopically, but by the time I saw him it had to be removed via open surgery because it was so big.
In the interim waiting for the different appointments to find out about that surgery, I decided to go ahead w/the WLS, did that (only took a month to see the dr and schedule the surgery...my insurance has no hoops to jump through overseas if your BMI is over 40), then had the fibroid removed a month after WLS. By the time I did the two surgeries and spent my post WLS time waiting to ttc...I was 39, almost 40.
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