Going into round 3

Good morning! Well, I am going to round 3 of treatment this week.. this a.m. I have appt for ovary check.. will most likely start the Femara tomorrow... it's okay... I am on my vacation week and I am doing my best in having fun, relaxing time and forgetting about all the family drama.
I did try to have a rational conversation with my mother on Saturday but it was futile... she is blinded by my brother's opinions... so I decided just to let them be... they will never see me as I am nor accept me how I am without criticism.  But since I told her everything and I just expressed how I have felt and how hurt I have been lately, I feel better.  Even though that she didn't even seem to care how hurt I was... when I clearly told her that I wanted to concentrate on hubby and I, that we need to be my priority, she was soooooo dramatic.... she said "oh, now we are nothing".. I'm telling you, with her is all or nothing.. so it's going to be the latter... She is saying that to control me.. but hell no!!! not falling into that trap..have been falling on that trap for almost 42 years and enough is enough.  If she wants to live her life (that goes with my dad and my brother) negative and miserable, then let them be... not going to live my life like that... it's their choice... I will be calling 1x a week but that's it.. not more.... who knows..maybe less...

Clearly think that God put me through a test of endurance through that.. He wanted me to just deal with it and drop it for my own good... to grow as a person... so that hopefully when I become a mom, I will not be soooo overprotective and selfish and to let my son or daughter, live their own lives... A lesson on how to be a better parent.

Anyway... is our vacation week and I am really trying to not think about this.. it only happens in the a.m. but then during the day I am concentrating on my hubby and I having fun.

Sunday was our 13th anniversary... we live in the Orlando area, so we got annual passes and went to Epcot but only stayed in Future World... then we came home, showered, changed and went for dinner to Texas de Brazil.  Have a coupon of buy 1 dinner the other complimentary.. great for us since I eat like 4 small pieces of meat and I am full/satisfied.

Yesterday we went to Hollywood Studios, met with friends of ours that are on vacation at Disney Resort and spent like 5 hours with them at Hollywood Studios, then came home.. It has been sooooo hot!!!!!

Today is chore day... laundry, grocery shopping, doctor's appt, relaxing at home doing crosstitch, then miniature golf tonight.

Tomorrow doing movie and doing touristy thing.. Ripleys Believe it or Not.. (hahaha!) then evening Arabian Nights show....

Thursday.. Animal Kingdom in the a.m. then need to go shopping in the pm (have wedding to go to Saturday a.m.)

Friday... accupunture appt., relaxing at home before traveling for wedding on Saturday...

So..as you can see.... this is a vacation week... having fun with hubby.....

I pray and hope that this 3rd round will be it.... believe me at times, I have thought if I should just take a break....but don't want to just give up....

Have a great day!!

1. Call less. And do not argue with them about yourself. If they become abusive or disparaging, say you need to go and hang up. Maybe they will eventually get the point that you will no longer tolerate their behavior.
2. Good luck with your treatments.

well, went to my ovary check.. starting Femara tomorrow.. follicle scan next Wednesday if not pregnant this round.. have an appt on 29th with dr to see what's next...
We'll see..

Give you and your family a cooling off period.  Then limit how often you call and refuse to discuss any of the hot point issues.  Either that, or take the easier (at least for me) road and just don't call...period.  I talk to my dad 1-2x a month...but haven't spoke to my mom in 2 years...and don't see it happening in the next 2 years either.  Not saying I don't love her...I do...but I don't necessarily like her.  We have different morals and values - like opposite ends of the spectrum different - and it's easier to just stay away.

Good luck on your 3rd round.  I hope it's successful for you.  Have you considered IUI?  It's not TOO expensive (not IVF expensive) and might help out a little.   

I agree completely with what has been said so far! Family drama sucks! Have a great vacation!!! Good luck with round 3!

Hey girl! Just wanted to wish you much luck with third round. I know from your posts you're having a rough time, but do your best to just kick back and relax on your vacation time! Sounds like you guys have a wonderfully fun full schedule of things to do :) Must say I'm jealous...it's been years since I can remember my last vacation!

I hope things smooth out for you with the family stress. I've ignored my cousin that was being such a thorn in my side and ever since I feel so much more unstressed. She hasn't said a word and I haven't bothered saying anything either and I would just rather keep it that way. It's tough cus I wish I could talk to her and share in my experiences with her, but sometimes it really is better left unsaid...well, at least in my position it is. They'll realize in the end that they're the ones who missed out and this is precious time that can't be taken back or replaced.

Have a great week!! :)