tomorrow I find out...
It has been 2 weeks and tomorrow I take the test.... I hope we got lucky on the second round but I am not keeping my hopes up.... I just take it as it goes.
As you know from my previous/recent posts, I have gone through a lot of family stress... I just wish I could just escape for like 6 months and not have any contact with my family. Too much drama, negativism which I don't need during this period.
This coming week my hubby and I took vacation, we are staying local.. we live in Orlando area so we plan to visit the parks a couple of days, relaxing, visiting with friends that are coming from out of town, and a wedding of a friend of ours at the end of the week.
Regarding my family... tomorrow I am doing a very short quick visit to my dad (really don't want to go) but doing it just to get it out of the way.. 1/2 hour visit and back.. they live 2 hours away...and I am going to tell them..that I am going to be disconnected from everything. Only to call me if there is a true emergency, that's it. I don't want to talk to them during my whole week... I need my time away.
My mom left me a message this a.m. to call her back and I called worried and it was nothing URGENT!!! I was so mad!!!! I was going to call her later today because when I have called in the a.m. she's on the way to the hospital....so I figured to call later... well, she left me that message just to try to get me to call more than once..she she callled she lost... Drs haven't gone by of course, then she said..for me to call on my break and I told her I was very busy at work (which is true) and for her to call ME after drs have visited.. she called me this pm told me the same thing as in the a.m. nothing new... and then she had the guts to ask me if I was planning on visiting my dad. I answered a very dry "I don't know".
Hell, I am NOT going to tell her I plan to go tomorrow... for what? I am just going just to get it out of the way..and if she plans to attack me with questions of why I didn't go before that is my cue to leave at that moment. I am an adult and NOT going to answer her inquisition of every thing I do.
They will respect me NOW as an adult.. if she keeps pushing for me to call her more often or anything like that.. I will be pushing back harder... will even change my phone...
I want distance...
Anyway... I am just venting... family issues are emotionally draining...
I can't have this crap when I am in treatment..
Take care...thanks for listening.
As you know from my previous/recent posts, I have gone through a lot of family stress... I just wish I could just escape for like 6 months and not have any contact with my family. Too much drama, negativism which I don't need during this period.
This coming week my hubby and I took vacation, we are staying local.. we live in Orlando area so we plan to visit the parks a couple of days, relaxing, visiting with friends that are coming from out of town, and a wedding of a friend of ours at the end of the week.
Regarding my family... tomorrow I am doing a very short quick visit to my dad (really don't want to go) but doing it just to get it out of the way.. 1/2 hour visit and back.. they live 2 hours away...and I am going to tell them..that I am going to be disconnected from everything. Only to call me if there is a true emergency, that's it. I don't want to talk to them during my whole week... I need my time away.
My mom left me a message this a.m. to call her back and I called worried and it was nothing URGENT!!! I was so mad!!!! I was going to call her later today because when I have called in the a.m. she's on the way to the hospital....so I figured to call later... well, she left me that message just to try to get me to call more than once..she she callled she lost... Drs haven't gone by of course, then she said..for me to call on my break and I told her I was very busy at work (which is true) and for her to call ME after drs have visited.. she called me this pm told me the same thing as in the a.m. nothing new... and then she had the guts to ask me if I was planning on visiting my dad. I answered a very dry "I don't know".
Hell, I am NOT going to tell her I plan to go tomorrow... for what? I am just going just to get it out of the way..and if she plans to attack me with questions of why I didn't go before that is my cue to leave at that moment. I am an adult and NOT going to answer her inquisition of every thing I do.
They will respect me NOW as an adult.. if she keeps pushing for me to call her more often or anything like that.. I will be pushing back harder... will even change my phone...
I want distance...
Anyway... I am just venting... family issues are emotionally draining...
I can't have this crap when I am in treatment..
Take care...thanks for listening.
Good luck with your test tomorrow- my fingers are crossed!
Families can be stressful, especially when there is an illness and everyone is hyped up about that too, on top of the normal crap. I think taking a vacation from them for a week is a good idea, since you are on an official vacation anyway. Don't answer the phone. I know when my Mom had cancer and was dying we had so much more family drama than usual- and we have a lot too. My husband often criticizes me for being distant at times from my family, but everyone needs a break now and then. I'm glad you are visiting your dad- no matter what your feelings are right now toward him, if he were to die in the near future you would regret not having been at least once- it's a hard thing to go through. Hopefully he will recover.
Good luck!
Carrie
Families can be stressful, especially when there is an illness and everyone is hyped up about that too, on top of the normal crap. I think taking a vacation from them for a week is a good idea, since you are on an official vacation anyway. Don't answer the phone. I know when my Mom had cancer and was dying we had so much more family drama than usual- and we have a lot too. My husband often criticizes me for being distant at times from my family, but everyone needs a break now and then. I'm glad you are visiting your dad- no matter what your feelings are right now toward him, if he were to die in the near future you would regret not having been at least once- it's a hard thing to go through. Hopefully he will recover.
Good luck!
Carrie
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