fear of fat

i hate that  this baby is making me  gain weight, i have  lost for  the past  year and half every time  i got on the scale i was less than the time b4 now everytime i am more it makes me cry and depresses me to think i am gaining weight. i know it is healthly to gain some while prego and i know my fears  and depressions are irrational but i  hate this i dont like my body changing again and not looking slim and sexy i hate that  my cute clothes are not fitting anymore and i am wearing sweats and yoga pants out  in  public  i just want some reassurance  that i will go back  after baby is born i mean i had just got to my goal weight and started reasearching  plastics and whoops unexpected pregnancy, i didnt want to have anymore kids. i know how i sound right now so i dont need any replies of how i am being selfish and bratty and i am so lucky bc some people cant have kids and blah blah blah.i am happy about this baby i love it already, i want it to be healthy and happy and i want the very best for it i just dont want my body to be abused anymore. sorry this is a long rant and i just had toget it out there to some people might understand some of my fears

((hugs))
I don't think you sound bratty at all. You have a perfectly legit pregnancy concern that I'm sure every WLS mama has had.

Honestly, the weight will probably drop off soon after the baby is born. With my twins I gained 40 lbs, after leaving the hospital I had already dropped 25 lbs in just the 3 day hosptial stay (babies, placentas, extra fluid) and the rest came off very easy with breastfeeding.

Breastfeeding is a HUGE calorie burner.

I had the same fears... If you want to lose weight after the baby is born then you will... it might take some effort but it's doable. I gained about 35 lbs. with my baby and have lost about 25 pounds already and had my baby on the 2nd of July. It does come off, however I am back on track already with my basics. I had surgery 3 years ago and have changed my lifestyle so getting back into a routine was just human nature for me. I am already walking 1 mile a day and starting my exercise routine.

All i can say is that if you stay motivated and determind you will be able to get the weight off... go back to basics after the baby is born- protein, water water water and exercise.

I weigh 11 pounds more then i did at the beginning of my pregnancy and 19 pounds overall more then my lowest surgery weight ever. I hope to get the last 20 pounds off for good in the next coming months.

Good luck and don't be so hard on yourself. I know it's easier said then done but for me i forced myself to make myself up everytime i went anywhere making me feel better and not so depressed. Be happy, before you know it you will be able to walk your little bundle of joy in a jogger and walk those pounds off.

Good luck and motherhood is great- i would trade that in for being skinny anyday, but would prefer to have both of course. And I am getting there...

I have the same fears that you have because its hard to want a healthy baby and want to not gain and be healthy too.