Depression - tell me about your experience

I currently am on day 9 of switching to Zoloft 100 mg from Lexapro 20 mg and am trying to tough it out till the 2 weeks and then get to that 8 week mark of it totally kicking in.  The Lexapro didn't work for me after 9 weeks of being on it, so that's why I switched.

I am keeping myself busy with household stuff, taking the kids out, and being around others to take my mind off the depression and some anxiety ****il the drug kicks in).  I have some Remron that I can take for anxiety and I have taken it once or twice since I started the Zoloft.  I am feeling pretty good today and think hey, if I'm feeling this good today, at 2 months out, I should feel back to normal!!!

When I do have anxiety, it's often worse in the morning when I first wake up and I just have to make it to the afternoon.   I take the Remron if I need it though so it doesn't snowball and I end up having an anxiety or panick attack.  The last time I took it was Sunday morning and I know it has a half life of 40 hrs, so it's still kind of in my system.  I have 3 kids and am still adjusting to it and life is hectic right now.

I also tried sleeping on my own at first and not taking the sleep aid I was given (Lunesta) and ended up with two nights of 3 hrs of sleep and then an anxiety attack.  When I've first started zoloft the other times, it gives me bad insomnia and this time is no different.  So my ob/gyn said to take Lunesta for a month and then we can wean me off it and I should be able to go to sleep and stay asleep on my own.  I just hate taking it but if that's what I have to do to stay sane, I will.   I just do bad with little sleep when I am like this and am emotionally fragile. 

I know this drug will work and hopefully I will eventually be able to get off it.  It's just after I've had my babies that I've needed the Zoloft.  I'm having to do things right now that I have to force myself to do and I just want to lie in bed and sleep!!  But it is making me happy and feel normal to get out and also to do the daily rituals and all the stuff I did before I had the baby.

Please tell me that I won't be like this forever (I know I won't, just need reassurance) and it does get better.  I know a lot of you have suffered from depression on here and can relate. 

Also, I just hope this anxiety goes away too with the Zoloft.  I was totally fine until I had the baby and have been since I've had my last baby and got off the Zoloft.

I have no experience with this. I just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you and praying for you. It sounds so difficult what you are going through. I'll keep praying that it gets better.

Tina

thanks Tina! Just be grateful you haven't gone through depression. It's one of the hardest things in life to suffer from IMO and I'd almost rather deal with anything else than this. Today feels pretty good though since I woke up and I think this drug is really starting to work.

Zoloft worked really, really well for me and it worked within a matter of days. i didn't really have the anxiety issues though.