Well it's official....

I went to the clinic today because I was just not feeling good.
I there found out my insurance has been cancelled and that I had to pay cash... thank God my Fiance was with me and we were able to pay for the visit.

Well to make a long story short... I found out im 6 weeks pregnant by an ultrasound that
they gave me...ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.... double header like the Doctor said
Fraternal Twins again.
Im not super happy and Im sorry to say that... Im going to be honest im DEPRESSED just because this was not supposed to happen and GEESH TWINS again???
This has to be due to me getting WLS because before WLS when I was alot younger I never got preggers with twins.
Fiance is torn and so am I... We got alot to think about and no matter what we decide I hope no one decides to judge me...

I was not going to post about this..but I cant talk to my mother, she will most def, flip out.
No one else knows besides you guys and a close friend of mines.

Well going to lay down.. I feel terrible!

GN 

Meleney

Gosh, I'm so sorry.

No judging here.  It's an extremely difficult situation.

thank you

I read your previous post and I was not going to say anything but jeez "this wasnt suppose to happen" I mean you were NOT using any form of birth control (from your previous post) what did you think would happen??? I would suggest that you USE birth control. There are so many people who would do anything for one baby but several!!! You are so blessed. I pray that you take responsibilty for your actions. Whatever you decide is between you and the Lord.

"I can do all this through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

I am glad you have this site and group of ladies to come to. I just wanted to say I will pray for you and you famiily...take care, Stacey

thank you Stacey

You make the most beautiful of babies....I would so take them if I had the money to provide for them.  I'm gonna pray for you.  I know you are exhausted physically and emotionally and there IS NO WAY I'll judge you.  I do hope you will keep them but two sets of twins is ALOT of work.

And I was thinking you already have some other kids...but I can't remember.

Just pray about it, think about it, discuss with the man...and I know you will make the best decision all the way around.

Rest!

thank you and it is hard work... :(
I do have a total of 4 kids, Im just praying and hoping to come to a decision soon.

thanks again

I will be honest.. Though I won't judge you for getting pregnant, I will judge you depending on what you decide to do.  I would like to say I am not the type to do that, after you flat out stated you were not using birth control...it is just completely irresponsible on you and your fiances' part.  The babies you are carrying should not have to pay for your irresponsibility.

Maybe I am bitter and jaded because I don't have a baby and may never have one.  After trying for over 3 years with only 4 miscarriages to show for it...YES, I am pissed.  There are so many women who want just one healthy child.  This type of thing is just a massive slap in the face.  And this will be an unpopular response, but I am not sure talking to God will help.  I am pretty sure he doesn't exist.  Or, if he does...he has a sick sense of humor.

Please do the right thing.  If they will not bring joy to your life and you cannot financially afford them -- please, please help some other couple that has been longing for children to love.  It is the most unselfish, loving thing you can do for them.

Well I do agree with you on the irresponsible part... I was being careless and things happened.
Now this is a place where we can come and talk freely about what is going on in our lives and so forth. I knew and I was warned by someone on here on posting about my pregnancy, but I choose not to listen because I have nothing to fear or to hide.
I knew this wouldnt sit well with most people but I did want to share.
You have every right to answer to my post just as much as I have a right to post on here, you can be pissed of at me all you want, just like I was irresponsible on not being carefull about getting pregnant im not responsible for those women who cant get pregnant, do I feel for them? yes, ofcourse but im not going to let no ones guilt trip make me feel like a bad person.
Like they say walk a mile in someone elses shoes and then you can talk, I dont mean to sound like a B**** but the comment you made about it being a "massive slap to the face" I never intended to make anyone feel that way.

I do beleive in God and to me prayer does work.... he might not answer right then and there
but he does eventually, you have your beliefs and I have mines.