Really in Need of Reassurance

I'm trying not to but I am REALLY starting to stress out about the anatomy ultrasound Thursday.  It makes me ill to even type the following...I'm terrified that I will go in and they will tell me the baby has died.

I still have pregnancy symptoms (my belly is growing, I still have "morning" sickness, round ligament pain, no bleeding, etc.) and that provides some reassurance.

Maybe it's because I've lost three--although all were by 10 weeks.  Maybe it's because this baby doesn't move often and when it does it's not like Elijah (they said he was an exceptionally active baby; plus I am heaver than I was with him).  Maybe this is normal to feel this way?

I still hold my breath for every ultrasound and I am almost 33 weeks!!!

Good luck on thursday and keep us posted

Liz

Thanks, Liz!  Hopefully I can post again tomorrow afternoon.

LOL I am the same way! I just went in yesterday for a quick ultrasound cause my monring (noon and night) sickness just stopped. I was told it's normal and even moreso after a miscarriage.

Glad to hear all went well, Kathy!

I think it is totally normal to have those feelings. Those who suffer a loss have higher worry because you don't want to go back through it.

I understand your feelings. I worry often! Just hang in there and hope you get some great pictures of baby tomorrow!


Traci

Thanks, Traci.  I've followed your story and I'm so happy for you!

I'm the same way, don't feel like you are alone.  I was so worried going into my ultrasound last week.  I'll be 20 full weeks tomorrow.  I have yet to really feel the baby move - I feel something, but its almost like a muscle spasm or something, no real kicks to speak of.  I'm like you - I think it has to do with this being my 2nd pregnancy and due to the fact that I'm heavier now than I was with my first one.  I keep praying I'll feel a good swift kick any day now.  I agree about the miscarriage stuff too.  I miscarried last July and I'm ever so cautious with this pregnancy, more so than I was with my first.  Hang in there and keep us posted!

Monet

I know what you mean about really feeling the baby move. With Elijah it started really early--14 weeks a flutter and then constant movement--no question what I was felling.  With this one, I don't feel it every day and when I do it doesn't last long and it's not nearly as strong.  Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, too.

I am a worrier too and I freak out before ultrasounds, especially up until I could consistently feel the baby move. I pray that everything will go well at your ultrasound.