First appt today - mixed emotions

I am (according to my figures) 7 wks and 3 days pregnant. My first appointment is today. I'm very nervous because I don't know what all they're going to do.

I don't know what they'll find. A healthy pregnancy, an ectopic, an empty sac, etc. I can think of every bad thing.

I'm so torn between being excited about possible having a baby and being totally okay if it doesn't work out. My husband is 52 (I'm 36) and he has grown children, even grandchildren. I don't really think he wanted any more. But I told him 6 months ago when I got my IUD out that if he didn't want any more kids, he needed to get fixed because I'm done with birth control. He obviously didn't do anything.

He hasn't come right out and said anything, but I feel like he "blames" me for being pregnant. I feel like he's mad at me all the time. So, if this doesn't turn out to be a viable pregnancy, I'm okay with that to have my sweet husband back. But on the other hand, I have no children and have never been pregnant before, I'm excited at the thought, but not at the price of my happy marriage.

Am I terrible for thinking like this? Am I just being crazy, or what?....

Thanks for listening.

I don't think you are crazy for having these thoughts at all! We all get nervous for these appointments because you don't know what's going to happen. Then to add on top to it, you're not even sure you would want a baby (it sounds like you want one, but hubby does not). Of course you are nervous and apprehensive.

I hope all goes well today. Please let us know. I am sure your hubby will come around.

Tina

Good luck with the appt! I was scared to death for my first appt. The first time I was too nieve to be scared and I was told that there was nothing there at 11 weeks, I had a blighted ovum. When I went in the second time I was almost in hysterics in the waiting room and all was perfect.

Good luck and keep us posted!

I understand all of your concerns.  My only suggestion is to sit back and see what happens.  Your husband obviously was not THAT concerned about not having any more children if he did nothing about it.  It is probably just the shock of his age difference and yours...trust me...he will come around...they always do.  Of course, I was always very quick to remind my hubby that this was not immaculate conception and he played a large (relatively speaking) LMAO  in it.  I hope that your appointment went well and you got all of the answers you wanted!

Take Care!

Laura 

 I really wish you luck at the appointment.
Remember, You can always find another husband, but you won't ever have another (who ever this little person turns out to be) :-)