no more for me!

I came here as this is the only place I don't get judged for wanting more children but today I found out that I can have no more. Please don't get me wrong I thank God everyday for the children that I have but it is very hard for me to be told I can have no more without risking my life. After my last recent c-section I was told I have a "window" in my uterus and that it  is very thin...too thin and today after going over the surgery report we ( us and doc)  have decided that given my uterus being extremely thin, already having three sections and that I am 40 that it is entirely too risky for me to have another baby, I would never put my life at risk  and leave the family and children that God already gave me and that is exactly what could happen if I were to try to carry another one. I just needed to vent  as it is sad for me, some people will get it and some won't and  that is okay I just needed to get it out as I am sad. thanks for letting me vent and always being so supportive.
Beth

I'm sorry Beth.  I had already decided to have my tubes tied, but during my c-section the OB told me that my uterus was too thin for future pregnancies.   It bothered me.  Not because I wanted more kids, but because I felt like my body had failed me if I had wanted more.  

I can't imagine how hard that would have been to hear if I had been wanting more children.   You are doing the right thing by not risking it.    Would you all be open to adoption? 

Again, I'm sorry.   We are here anytime you need to vent.

Amy

Thank you Amy, yep you get it's like my body let me down, we had not started ttc an were thinking on it and Iam sure in time this saddness will pass thanks again...

how's Noah?

Noah is doing great.  His congestion is almost gone, he's nursing like a champ, and sleeping the day away (notice I didn't say night lol).  He has a check up Thursday.  I'm hopig he will at least be back up to his birth weight.   Thanks for asking.

I"m so sorry Beth.  I completely understand.   It must have been hard to hear that news today. 
Be strong and vent as much as you need to!

thank you , hearing them say it was the hardest part!

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I am so sorry Beth. I can not imagine what you are feeling, but my heart hurts for you.

I love you!

thank you so much Dawn!

Oh no, I'm sorry. I wouldn't like to be told that either. It's like they're taking that away from you if you indeed did want it.

 I'm sorry Beth.  It's one thing to make the decision yourself, it's another to have the decision made for you.  Vent away!