hello again...its me...update and question at end about small babies

Okay...maybe not pizza..unless you can stuff 1 whole slice including all the bread and its from Costco(thats like 800 cals a slice).  Reason being...maybe the bread is keeping you from getting more calories.  The more I think about it...I know even over 2 yrs out...bread causes me to quit eating b/c it is so bulky.  I think the liquid route is going to be your friend.  Definitely search out a Smoothie King near you...they make the MOST CALORIC yummy crap you have ever seen.  I used to go work out(prior to wls) and then go to Smoothie King and wondered why I gained.  Ummm yeah...I never looked at the calories.  Don't go with the healthy choices...go straight to the fatso attracting drinks...you know, the ones that look soooo good. 

Its got to be frustrating...but you have to remember God has her in his hands.  Hard yes....do we take our kids back all the time?  yes.  But in the end, He made the decision to put her in your tummy and He makes the decisions about how long we keep them and how we get them.  I have to remind myself every day that I am not in charge.  Do your best, and let Him do the rest.  Just give it to Him and TRY to leave it there.

I started having contractions(real ones) over the weekend b/c I got really dehydrated from the stomach flu(ended up in the ER and L&D for fluids and monitoring.  I had to trust that if she came early, God would have her ready.  That would have been one small baby(around 3lbs).  Not an easy thing to trust when your pee is almost orange its so dark and you are drinking like crazy and its going thru you.  I probably drank 200oz of Gaterade just to get the contractions to stop. 

Its not easy, I don't envy it...but look...small miracles are already occurring.  Her heart is looking better and better.  She is still alive and well.  Maybe just maybe she'll be a little baby.  5lbs and a half, while little is not considered grounds for NICU.  And she'll be way easier to push out.  Just do your best, momma and let God do the rest.

Yea thats how I have been trying to calm myself. Small babies are easier to get out and if anything we can plump her up after she arrives. Her heart is getting better, the holes are super small now and balanced (and expected to close before birth), and I am kinda coming to terms that she may be a ds baby...I dont think that will come fully until she is born and I HAVE to face the fact.

I can eat the majority of a slice I just get full by the crust. But I am by no means talking a thin crust pizza or plain cheese...I mean chicken bacon ranch, spicy buffalo chicken (that I end up dipping in ranch), supreme pizzas. And I usually eat a snack about 2.5 hours after (I eat lunch like 1130-12 and by 230 Im hungry) so it doesnt hold me over for long. I wish we had a smoothie king or jamba juice out here but I live in a really small town (our mall only has an auntie annes no cinnabun and its one floor and 15 min away).

Sorry you were in ER. I know the feeling of dehydration, happened to me at 12 weeks. Complete crap. I have been trying to be more deligent with water later because even though I am drinking 60+ oz a day I still have ketones (even though thats in the am and they clear out as the day goes on). I hope your feeling better now though, take care of yourself but I heard that bug has been going around. My mom whose a nurse keeps phoning me cause she thinks I am coming down with it but my body is giving a good fight before it gives in and lets me have it full force (so shes worried when it loses I am gonna get hit hard with it).

My doctor was a complete moron and didn't really care about me.  I only had 1 growth scan, and that was at 20 weeks.  My son was measuring small, but they said he'd catch up.  So I didn't worry about that.  He was born (by emergency c-section) 11 days LATE (another moronic move on my doctor's part!) and was 4 lbs 15 oz!  I was shocked.  I wasn't diagnosed with IUGR until AFTER he was born.  He also has holes in his heart.  He's now 20 months old, and he's still really little - 19 lbs.  He isn't even really on the growth charts.  He's below the 1st percentile, and he still has the holes in his heart.  We have a pediatric cardiologist that we see, and they're just monitoring him.  Eventually one of his holes will have to be closed, but they don't have to open them up to do that anymore.  And other than that, he's perfectly healthy, just tiny.  So even if your baby is born small, it's ok.  Everything can work out, and if there are problems (like with the heart), you can deal with them.  So don't worry too much about the size. 
Good luck!!

Thanks DaNell. Hearing something so relateable is very calming. I am sorry your dr was such a fool, I swear they need to lose licenses over things like that. Did he have to spend time in the NICU? Is so how long? Were his lungs mature when he was born? How many holes does he have and are they even or is one bigger than the other?

I ask because right now she is at the 26th percentile and apparently has always been small (just never bought up). However, my OB said she has consistantly grown so if she keeps this up she might just be born on the smaller side as she is not in the dangerous below 20th category yet. Also I ask about the holes because she currently has 2, one on the left and one on the right. At my appt yesturday they said they have gotten smaller and they are equal in size so everything is pumping evenly. Also that they will probably close by the time she is born but no guarntees but they will not cause any problems until after she is born if anything. And if they are still there they will send me to a baby cardiologist. Thats so scary to hear, I didnt even know they exsisted.

I hope your lil man is doing alright now though. And I send him my best wishes.

You know...just re reading your posts...she doesn't seem that small to me.  If anything...she is right where What to Expect When you are Expecting would put her weight-wise.  If she is off by anything, it'd be a few ounces..and lets face it, all babies are different.  I think they are full of crap.  You have ALOT on your plate...I certainly wouldnt worry about a few ozes.  2.5lbs at this age?  Not too bad.  Now, 'Bella weighed 2.5 two weeks ago which was at 26wks but I have a porker for a baby(like her mama she loves food) maybe your baby is destined to be naturally skinny.  Not a bad thing to be.  Not at all. 

Try to relax...its almost comical for me to tell someone that because if you knew me you would laugh out loud.  I am the most stressed pregnant woman ever.  If this baby goes to sleep for an hour, I am upset and jiggling her trying to wake her up.  My husband says she is going to sleep for days when she is born just to make up for all the sleep I deprive her of.  I worry over everything.  But seriously, I know we shouldn't.

That is exactly what I thought, that she was just off by ounces. But I guess its her measurements that are small and worrying them.

I am trying very hard to relax. I had finally started to relax about the DS scare and just accept that she will be what she is because there is nothing I can do anyways and then now they bring up this one. I ure hope though that I will be able to relax a little soon because I am going crazy.

He was in the NICU for 3 days, so it wasn't so bad.  I was still in the hospital with him that whole time.  His lungs were developed cause he was really overdue.  It was almost like I had preemie problems AND overdue problems!  He had a lot of meconium, so they had to do an amniotic flush, and right when he was born they had to suck that crap out of his lungs, so it took like 2 minutes before he cried.  Longest 2 minutes of my life.....

As for his heart, he has 2 holes, and one is now bigger than the other.  One is closing, and the other won't close on its own.  They said that maybe when he's about 5 they'll go in and close it.  They just feed a little line in from his groin and put a little piece of wire in the hole, and scar tissue grows around it closing the hole.  I'm so happy that they don't have to cut open his little chest.

The main thing is that he's a healthy, happy little boy.  There's something that's going to need to be fixed in a bit, but that's ok.  Other kids who are born normal size have to have things fixed too.  My little guy has never even had an ear infection.  You'll always have something to deal with, and for me, I don't think the heart issues are that bad.

So after my novel, I hope you can feel a little more at peace.  It's ok if they're small.  They can be healthy and happy, and I'm sure your little princess will be just fine!

That sounds good and it is very true. The most important thing is he is happy and healthy for the most part. That is all I can ask for for my princess.

I didnt know that the hole could be closed so easily. That is amazing. And yes I am feeling that after talking to all you lovely ladies I am calming down a bit.

I am a worrier about everything, so I completely understand you be worried. It sounds like you're doing everything you can and the rest is really out of your hands. I sure hope your baby grows to be healthy, even if she is small. Keep us posted.

Hi Tami!

Yes, I think we are all worriers. It is so easy to worry and so hard to just calm down and possibly accept everything. I will keep you ladies posted.