quick vent!

ok most of you know i work midnights and i have a 14 month old... my pregnancy is also high risk... i havent shared but i only have a 60% chance of making it passed 32 weeks... my drs are over on top of everything and i get frequent ultrasounds to check fro cervical change and the general well being of little miss... well from 16 weeks until 22 weeks it went from 4.3 down to 2.2... im still aloud to work but thats it... i have a dick head boyfriend ( jaylyns father) who thinks its ok to come home later every night... really just before 10 so i can go to work.. im running out of patience... i tell him a little bit of help would be nice... so he took out the trash LOL... hes a joke and im pretty sure that i will never be able to get him to change a ****ty diaper.. im starting to think that we would be better off without him... ive already told him that this wont work the way it is and he really didnt have much to say... i think he knows it coming to an end... i orginally have him until 1/1 to get it together or he will have to leave... but the greedy part of me wants to milk him until i have the baby and then throw him on child support and kick him out... he also never asks about baby... how im feeling.... or anything... hes come to one dr appt and thats because i begged him... anyway... no need to respond... just a vent!

I have a pair of nice pointy shoes you can borrow if you want...

Here's hoping that little Miss Jaylyn bakes as long as possible!

Oh how is Mr Schmuck with Jayson? Does he just not get the whole pregnancy / baby thing?

hes good with jayson... hes good with friends kids.. i don tunderstand him

If you want my honest opinion...I'd tell you that if he's not willing to be there a little more for you...help you out when you're pregnant, knowing you're high risk, or wanting to be there when you go to the dr...I'd guess that he's not going to be there for you when little Miss Jalyn is here...help you out  after her birth, whether it's feedings, diapers, or just doing what he can so you can rest...or wanting to be a father to her.

If you're not getting what you want and need out of the relationship...it may not be the relationship for you.  I'd love to cover it with sugar and tell you once he gets a gander at your beautiful little girl, things'll change...but I doubt it. 

This is something you have to think about and truly ask yourself what's best for you and your babies...then do what it takes to do what's best, even if it's not the easiest.

I pray Miss Jalyn keeps baking at least til the 32 weeks...and a few weeks after that would be even better. 

i told him i did it alone for 13 months and i can keep doing it... he knows im serious... he knows what he has to do... i guess im just hoping he will get it together

May I ask who watches your son while you are at work?  Is it this guy you call a dick head?  If he is really not well suited to be a father from what you can tell, I wouldn't be leaving my son with him (especially when he is not his)....I got the impression because you said he was coming home just in time for you to go to work....

i take him to grandmas on the wat

My husband was clueless about the pregnancy thing. Our first three children he was a jerk. We lost our forth and he was wonderful through that. With this baby he has his moments but for the most part he has been great and he admitted that he was not great during our other pregnancies. In fact we usually do not like each other while I am pregnant. Once he saw our children he was great. With our first we worked opposite shifts and he took wonderful care of our son. After we had our daughter I became a stay at home mom so most of the duties fell on me. We did go through some ruff patches but he is a wonderful dad and husband. When we had our first children we were in our early 20's and had them all 2 years apart. With this baby we are in our 30's and he is more attentive. I am not sure if it is that we are both more mature and have now been together for 12 years, I just know there was a change. I am not saying stay but he may change when he sees that little girl. It maybe that he just does not know what to do and the idea scares him to death. My husband gets quite and withdrawn when he worries about us. anyway, I just thought I might give you a different perspective.
Good Luck,
Emily

im hoping he comes around when shes born.... he knows im serious about getting it together