I have been refered to a RE

I went to my appointment yesterday, it was not what I was expecting and I have now been transfered to a Reproductive Endocronologist (probably spelled wrong)  his name is Dr. Abuzeid I have an appointment on the 20th, I have no clue what to expect. 

I have thought about cancelling the appointment 3 or 4 times since making it, I dont want to go, I feel like its all in vain at this point in time... part of me really wants to give up.

I am feeling like doctors are just giving up on me left and right, I am feeling really hopeless and not very optimistic about going to this person either.  I just feel really lost and tired and part of me is like maybe i should just wait longer, but then another side of me feels like I have waited long enough darn it!!

I dont know if I am looking for any advise, or just venting, I have had the worst year, I am hoping 2010 will be better.  I am trying to be hopefull that this RE can offer something, but I am affraid that it will be more of nothing.  

Part of me wants to be optimisitc because in all the tests and blood work they have done, they have not found anything more than needing the additional folic acid (which i take daily with out fail) and I was told I needed to be on 12 weeks before getting pregnant, well i was only on it 2 weeks before we found out we were pregnant the last time... So maybe thats all it is?  I am trying to be optimistic that maybe thats all it is....

Husband and I are going in tomorrow morning for blood work for genetic work ups for the new doc.

If anyone has any insight on RE's in general I would appreciate it.....

Otherwise thanks for listening....
-Amanda

An RE is who you should have seen prior to seeing a HIGH risk doctor. The RE will be a great help. They will be able to run a lot of tests to find out what is going on.

Good Luck.

The HIGH Risk doctor was the one that found out I needed the Folic Acid, so I am thankful to her for what she found out, but going to this step just makes me feel like its useless at this point in time...

I am close to giving up.

Honestly you should be excited and happy you are seeing an RE since they are the ones who deal with the REPRODUCTIVE system.

RE's are a god send! They are the one's who can diganose many different issues! 

I guess we will see but I will not get my hopes up...

I am not happy i feel like a failure

I think being transferred to a more informed specialist can only help. A RE really is the logical next step *big hug* Best of luck!

No Amanda, you should try to be excited!  The RE can help with SO much!  Yes, you've waited a long time, and it totally sucks, but hopefully they've got you in the right direction now and good things are on their way for you!  Good luck, and I hope 2010 is your best year yet!
-Donna

I am just scared they are going to just want to do IVF which I dont feel like I need obviously I keep getting pregnant...

I am far from excited, I dont know why, I was hoping it wouldnt come to this.

An RE's last step is IVF.  Their entire profession is to get people pregnant.  They start out cheap and then if that fails, move on to a little bit more invasive, etc.  If you have any hope of having a sticky pregnancy, an RE is the one that is going to help you achieve.

No one is giving up on you, they just FINALLY got you to the right kind of doctor.....

I know how frustrated you ar *hugs* you are going to the right Dr now and they are going to help you get your miracle! Like you said you know that you can get pregnant - now the RE just has to keep you there.

Your appt is Jan 20th?