5 years ago today....Pic enclosed

Thanks everyone. Reagan's birth was a wonderful experience. I love thinking about how peaceful it was and how she was born in the dark and didn't cry or seem startled. It heals me to think of her birth because I have such anxiety still to this day over Riley's birth. He will be 2 in a few weeks and it still upsets me to think about that day.

Jennifer,

What an amazing story!!!  If you do not mind my asking...what happened with Riley?  If it is too personal, please do not feel obligated to respond.  I understand :)  I just love to hear different birth stories, so that is why I am asking.  

Tell Reagan Happy Birthday and how famous she is :)

Laura 

Riley's birth was horrible and I blame myself and my OB for that disaster.

Because I have such fast labor and because I didn't want to have him in the car I agreed to induction. Another big part of my decision I am ashamed to say is the tax deduction. I was due on January 6 and they only induce one week early so January 31st it would be. I got there the night before, was given miso and Ambian. Hallucinated and fell asleep. At 8:30 am they started the pit and she checked me 3 cm and he was floating. At 9:15 she came back in, my husband asked why the rush to check so soon again, contractions were not showing up on the strip but I was having them. She checked me again and said he is still floating but I am going to try and break the water anyway. She had trouble because there was no bulging bag because his head was so high. As soon as she broke it she said, "I'm so sorry we have a prolapsed cord". She moved his head off the cord and we wheeled into the OR with her hand inside me, me panicked that his O2 was cut off. They gave me general and he was out at 9:24, with Apgars of 2 and 3, not breathing but with a heartbeat. My husband saw him and thought he was dead, he did not breathe for 30 minutes because he was under general also. Because he was bagged he developed a pneumothroax and also had rapid breathing. They had lines in his umbilicus and I was not allowed to hold him until he was 4 days old. I feel this is why he is not the happiest baby on the block. It was the most depressing 5 days of my life but he was out the night of his 5th day and I held him every minute of his life for months after that trying to fix what was done to him. I CRINGE when I read about non medical inductions, I HATE the woman who did this. I LOVED my OB's and she was the new DR. I will forever be angry and I will never "get over it". After 4 wonderful, natural births I allowed medical intervention and they almost killed my baby.

oh my goodness Jennifer...that is horrible.  I can definitely understand why you have the opinion that you do, as you experienced first hand what can happen when baby really and truly is not ready.  I was induced with all but 1 of my babies...but they were all on the ultrasound due date, and all for "failure to progress"...I could never dilate past 5 on my own...I literally stayed at a 4-5 for the long time was 3 weeks.  Evidently I have a "lazy" uterus that refuses to continue to contract on itsown long enough for me to dilate enough to have a baby.  Go figure it would be me having something lazy in my body...LOL


I am so happy that Riley ended up being okay.  I completely understand the guilt you feel, as I feel that with my son.  My body flat out "rejected" that pregnancy (is what the perinatologist said)...I had him at 31 weeks after being induced and 37 hours of labor.  We did not get to hold him until 3 weeks old.  He was breathing perfectly on his own.  He was just little.  But they decided to put CPAP on him, which is continue oxygen being forced into your lungs...well they blew a hole in his lung with it.  So, he had to be sedated, put on a  ventilator and 2 chest tubes put in.  I was FURIOUS with the doc that ordered the CPAP as that is a very common side effect in a premature baby is a pneumothorax (hole in their lung).

I guess we are both very lucky that our babies are okay..I STILL think that Kolbe's sense of pain is out of whack though from being born so premature.  He simply has the highest pain tolerance I have ever seen in my life.  The doctor said that he does not think that portion of his brain was completely developed when he was born causing him to have an extremely high pain tolerance.  Before he will tell me he has an earache...his ear drum had ruptured...then he fussed a little that it hurt.  He just had his tonsils out...and lived with Tylenol alone...refused Vicodin  cuz he didn't like the way it made him feel.  I could go on and on with instances of things that are painful that he does not even respond to.  Anyway, I am with you on non medical inductions...maybe not as passionate as you...but definitely understand it.  I am sure you just feel so helpless in the whole situation hence the holding him constantly and trying to make up for "lost" time.  He is gonna be okay honey :)  I promise.  Except you may have some "unspoiling" to do when he eventually gets into high school and you won't let him nurse any more....LMAO...I am so just kidding on that and I would never say that to anyone but you because I know you know I am kidding :)

Thanks for answering my nosy post...Hugs to ya 

Laura

Oh P.S. on your weight...hang in there...this is just a crappy-ass stall and maybe this is the weight where your body is comfortable and you never will get down as low as you want.  Our bodies have a mind of their own and won't do what we want them to.  I am sure you look amazing and as long as you feel good...that is what counts :)



 

What an awesome story!  Happy Birthday ! 

Thank for sharing !

Cindy

That is awesome and you would think I was pregnant or something becauase I cried when I read it. LOL

Amazing story!

ya know, i didnt think it could ever happen to anyone else!  except for with me, I was the baby!!  On june 4 1982 I was to eager to make it to the hospital too!!  thats a great story!!!