OT a day in the life of Lola Lou

 Well...most of you here know me as Laura...but one of my favorite sisters calls me lola lou...and it has always stuck in the family.   So, as most of you know...the only way that I am able to eat and bear this unbearable pain is by taking very large amounts of opiates....Right now I am prescribe 40 mg 4 times a day of Methadone, 6 Percocet a day 2 oxocycodone a day and 6 alprazolam a day....this is simply to get through the pay that I have when I eat.  Needless to say...i stay most of my life stoned.  Well...my hubby decided this weekend I was taking too much...and took ALL of my meds and locked them in a safe....I reallydo not hve too much issue...other than the methadone...as withdrawals from meth can be a *****  He has agree to not completely cut my meth, but I get 2 every 3 hours..I can handle that...the ones I am concerned about is that I need to be weaned from the other things propertly....I'm not sure what todo...I am goin straight to thedoc on Monday....Ijusthope I make i through without major withwdrawals...please pray for me...cuz I am terrified of withdrawal...and I want toget thorugh this theright way...not my husbandy's weay...
8sigh*


any advise would help

Love,


Laura

Laura, my first question is are you pregnant? If so DO NOT GO OFF ANY MEDS SUDDENLY without talking to your doctor first!  If you are not pregnant it is still not a great idea to go off of meds suddenly. Going off opiates (methadone, percocet and oxycodone) will be very uncomfortable but not life threatening. Symptoms often are leg/stomach cramps, hot/cold chills, body aches, etc. The average detox takes 3-5 days. They can cause changes in your vital signs though which is why you should really consult your doctor first. The biggest worry for me is the Alprazolam! You cannot stop taking a benzodiazepine cold turkey because it can cause serious changes in your pulse and blood pressure which CAN BE LIFETHREATENING! It does seem like a lot of medicine to be taking, but you really should consult your doctor. Good luck. Hope you can find a happy medium for yourself and your husband to manage your discomfort. Take care.

there was another girl a long while back who had what sounds like the same problem... she was also on massive pain medications and i think ended up being fed veniously... i hope your withdrawl symptoms are not to bad and you guys can work something out.... how is it going today?

I have no advice but I have lots of respect for you and love (but you already know that)!

Break the days down into half hour increments if it helps and just try to get through 30 minutes at a time.  Also, keep your Dr's # handy and don't be afraid to call.  While I can appreciate your hubby's concerns, I also worry that doing this without medical supervision may not be entirely safe

Please keep us posted and know that you have all the love, support and understanding you need to do this!

Hugs,

I am just going to respond one time to all of you, as most info would be redundant.  My hubby and I have come to an agreement, that the methadone is a necessary evil at this point in my life.  I have agreed to cut down on it...I take 14 10 mg tablets a day...the Percocet we have agreed to start with 4 a day for a week, then 3 a day for aweek, 2 a day for a week and see how we go from there...I went to the doc this morning.  While he is not in total agreement with this, as he feels we have finally just gotten me stabilized...he is willing to give i t a try.  I have no problems trying...as long as I am alloewd to go back up if I need to.  I am NOT quite sure what brought this on with my hubby I honestly believe it is watching that damn show intervention....at any rate...his fears are there and are real....I am going to try to do my best and use the least meds thatI wcaan akk :normal" chronic pain patients use....it is just the findint "my" happy medium...just prayfor m that ( can without can get  off of the least amounts of meds that I can be on toget by...but I refuse to be in pain for the rest of my life either...catch 22....I ppreciate your caring support and feel free to PM me any time...I am kind of kiddping to my felsefl this ay and ageHugs and ksss....and thanks forallthe unjedgemental support!L  I also hope you can understand I am not a drug seeker and drug addict...it is simply become the ony way I can get through life without dieing of starvation.

Laiura 

Okay...so new so plan...Methadone is it for the chronic pain...if I have breakthrough pain that Percocet will not take care of, then I am limiting myself to 2 morphone shots a month...I haveto do this for myself and my family and my marriage...its just so hard that people do NOT understand the chronic pain that I have in my haead and my gutt...at least my doctor does.  My hubby says he will support me in any ways shap or form....and I hope for all of us that I can get through this...because quite frankly...right now...I HATE my life...I HATE living in paind not being able to eat and struggling to keep my weight above 100 pounds...its just a mess...I would not wish this one anyway...

Thanks for let me vent...I love ya Jo...more than you know...you are my rock!

Laura 

Laura,
Hang in there hon! I will be praying for you and your family. If you need to vent please let me know. I am here for you.