Just saying ",Hi"

Hi ladies. I just jumped on to check in on everybody. It's been 21 days since the induction. Day by day is getting better. I don't sob all day anymore. Sometimes, I don't cry at all. The phantom kicks stopped a few days ago. Today, AF showed her face. 28 days from when Magnus' heart stopped beating. I'm still having trouble at night. I find myself having thoughts that start out " When the baby comes.." and then I remember that he's gone. Grief sucks. I'm tired of it. Dave and I have talked about it at length and decided that he will go ahead with the Vasectomy in Dec. We have always planned on adopting a child or children through the state when Niko was older anyway. It is a cause dear to our hearts. This way we will get our big family and I won't have to be pregnant ever again. It's such a risk for me with my heart issues and it takes a toll on my guys.

Hugs to all of you,
Angie

 Hi Angie,

I'm really glad you took the time to let us know how you are doing.  I just want to give you a big hug every time I see your posts.   Adoption is a great thing.  My brother was adopted when he was a toddler.  He made our family complete.  

Lots of hugs!

Angie I think about you often and say a prayer. I am glad that you are doing better - even if it is just a tiny bit every day.

I think that adoption sounds like a wonderful idea - a great experience for the whole family!

Take care of yourself.

Liz

angie... i think of you often... i wish there was something i could do for you... to make it all easier... adoption is great :)....im so glad you checked in

hi angie ...so sorry for what you going thrue ...i know first hand is hard and it never really leaves your brain or heart...i lost my baby Angel at 20 weeks and i can totally relate...it does get easier with time and the heartache diminishes a little. you have been in  my thoughts and prayers. I think the adoption is a wonderful idea am also looking into it...thankfully this time well make it all the way thrue and still will be an option to provide another child the oportunity to experience love and a family. Best of luck and hang in there takes time but it will get better. slowly but surely God is never far away to help us thrue

I've been thinking of you, Angie!  I'm so sorry about the heartbreak you must feel.  And grief is absolutely horrible that way.  We forget and then in remembering it's like living it all over from the very beginning again.  The loss of my first baby @ 12 weeks was like that and I honestly don't remember how long it took for me to be "over it", though I will always remember.  It sounds like you and Dave have leaned on each other through this, which is wonderful.  Wish I had some great words of healing, but all I can do is type that I truly do think of you and pray for you daily.  Perhaps in the midst of all this grief is not the best time to decide on the future course?  I can't claim to have any idea how each of you feel, nor the risks (physically and mentally) of conceiving again.  However, I just wonder if maybe you will both feel differently in another 60 days, or 90.  Ya know?  After my 3rd loss, I wanted no part of TTC again.  Several months later, I was very glad that DH didn't give up or have surgery....just something to consider and I hope you know that in no way am I trying to tell you what to do or what's best for you and Dave.

I'm here if you need anything and would love an email from time to time if you're up to it (and of course more pics of Niko, he must be growing so fast!)

Hugs to you,

I just wanted to send you a hug and tell you that I admire you strength and your choice to adopt. It is truely a wonderfully thing you will be doing.

I cannot imagine going through what you have, but you seem to have such a great outlook.  Been thinking about you!  Thanks for poppin in!

Karen

Hi Angie glad I popped in and saw your post! I am really glad to hear that you are doing okay and taking things one day at a time!  I hope things continue on a good path for you!
Hugs
Beth

Angie,

Grief *does* suck! I'm glad you're tired of it because that means you're ready to let go of it. That doesn't mean you'll forget, because we never forget, it just means we give it less and less energy to thrive within us and we're able to focus on the living life around us more (ie: husband, children, family). I know, sounds like quirky, wacko BS at times and I really should take my own advice. I just hate it when people hurt ...

Glad you're getting better. It's beautiful that you may adopt! Stay in touch ..