Whine/Vent

Ok, here is my whine post. I am feeling sad. I am happy for everyone who is posting about new BFP's, updated ultraounds, and new babies. But, I can't help but feel a little sad. I have been through he** and back and still no baby. My birthday is coming up Friday and I will be 35. I thought for sure I would have a baby by now.

I am still bleeding - day 40 of continuous bleeding! This is about to drive me batty. I am feeling better since the antibiotic is helping the lymph node infection that I got from the methotrexate shot for the ectopic pregnancy. I go back to the RE on Friday to get a blood test to see if my numbers are still dropping. This ectopic has just been a long process. I just want the bleeding to stop so I can have a period, have my HSG to ensure my tube isn't blocked from the ectopic, and move on to normal cycles to give my body time to heal.

Ok, so the one good side is that I won't be on any fertility drugs that alter my mood during the holidays :)

Traci

I love how you add in the positive. I am sorry to read you are still bleeding. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Thanks Emily!

Traci

Still bleeding?!?!?  Oh my gosh...you have every right to whine and vent.  I'm so sorry this is dragging on for so long.

I haven't been through nearly what you have and I remember quite vividly how tough it was to see all the happy posts after my miscarriage and to go on to read the birth stories from the ladies who got pregnant around the same time I did.

I believe it's going to happen for you.  Hang in there, chick.

Thanks for the post. I did pretty good after my miscarriage in June. I think this one is just so different because you know you are getting chemo to kill the fetus. Even though it won't last in your tubes and etc it is still hard. Plus, after 40 days of bleeding it is like ENOUGH ALREADY!

Thanks Sarah.

Traci

If it is any consolation (and I know it isn't), I have been on the bus to hell and back with you.  And, I turned 35 last Tuesday.  So that makes me 10 days ahead of you on the permanent trip to hell :-X 

Sorry I don't have more encouragement, as it is hard to muster these days.  Just know you aren't alone.

Thanks Ann! I guess that Advanced Maternal Age thing is getting to me. I was looking through charts today for some Women's patients and I kept seeing Advanced Maternal Age and thought that is going to be me  :) Also, this unexplained infertility is for the BIRDS!

I know you have been through heck! You have been a ride that no one wants to buy a ticket for. It is just good for me to know others are out there. Also, I post becuase I know there are some other women struggling right now and I want them to know they are not along as well!

Hang in there Ann!

Traci

When I  bled that long(the last time was in 2007) my gyno did a cystiscopy on me and found a pretty big fibroid. They removed that and cleaned out the contents for a biopsy. She also put me on prometrium every day so I would stop bleeding.

Have you talked to them about this bleeding thing.

Hugs about the other stuff too. I get it.

Angie

The RE said that this is not uncommon when a pregnancy is tubal. They gave me the methotrexate shot and he said sometimes the body will keep bleeding until the pregnancy levels drop to not pregnant. So, we will see on Friday.  I have brought up with OB and RE each time I have seen them over the last 5-6 weeks and they have said hang in there.

Thanks for the post Angie!

Traci

Traci,

Sending you a hug. I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel any better. But know you are not alone.

I struggle greatly with my miscarriage (Sept 27, 09).

I'm going to say some prayers for you.

With Love,
Amanda