Pre Appointment Anxiety

I have my 15 week appointment in the morning and I've been feeling incredibly anxious as I always do.

I'm one of those who has never really had any symptoms so I still don't believe everything is progressing as it should.  For the first 12 weeks I was seeing an RE and had ultrasounds every two weeks.  I haven't had one for three weeks so I'm all freaked out again.

I keep thinking that she's not going to find the heartbeat tomorrow.  I had some really sharp pains in my left lower abdomen through the weekend but I didn't call because I knew I had this appointment coming...now I'm second guessing that.

Argh!  I don't think I'll ever relax.  Maybe once I can feel some movement it'll get better.  This poor kid is going to come out and hand me a prescription for Xanax.

LOL...we really are pregnancy twins!  OMG...girl, I had to get them to put me on a low dose of Zoloft to just calm down.  You will be fine!!  I feel that way though every time I go to the doctor, and I have never miscarried, this is first time I've been pregnant...I am just so anxious.

I even believe my baby was my promise from God.  I even had a dream about the baby detailing that I would be pregnant and it would be a girl.  Next month...I was pregnant.  But I still can't relax.  It sucks really because I want to enjoy the pregnancy...but I am so jumpy. 

The husband, on the other hand, is so laid back it is scary.  OH>..everything is fine.  Thats his motto.  I wish I could be so peaceful.  I am calming down a little...I had to....I was exhausting myself.

You just have to accept that its not in our hands...at least that is where I am going with it.  Its a relief, really, to know I am not responsible...because I feel that I am...and that if something happens, it'll be my fault.  Why can't we just relax?

You're my new buddy...maybe we'll keep each other sane.

I did have a miscarriage earlier this year and that's part of the reason I'm so freaked...because it was exactly the same.  No symptoms at all.  I'm much farther than I got that time and I've seen the little bean jumping around in there but I still can't just chill.

Sigh...we'll survive this!

I also have an ultrasound tomorrow and I'm nervous about it. I keep thinking about what might happen. My mom keeps telling me to chill out, but it's hard too. Even though this is my second pregnancy and I have a daughter from my first, I still freak out over every little thing. I'm like you and haven't had too many pregnancy symptoms which makes me even more nervous. I guess my point is that you are not alone in the freaking out.

I just cannot imagine losing a child.  I see these women here on the board who have gone through multiple miscarriages and my heart breaks each time for them.  I don't always comment because nothing I say will help.  I cannot even imagine the heartbreak and the pain, no matter how far or how short the baby was in life.  The courage each woman shows as she continues to go on with her life amazes me and inspires me each time I see it..but I know in my heart that I am not that strong.

Each child is special...and I am getting too deep.

Its a big fear of mine, and I admire you for getting pregnant again and having the courage not to be a complete basketcase.  I am one, and haven't even dealt with that pain.

And oh yeah...we are definite buddies...we are one day apart!!!

There is no feeling in the world like that positive HPT, and almost immediately the worry sets in. It's normal, but it isn't easy. I had 3 m/c's and with each of my healthy pg's I worried. The only comfort came briefly during checkups and when I rented a Doppler. BTW, I had lots of symptoms with my 1st son, none with my daughter and every symptom with my last son.

Vent away and know that we all understand. Sending you serene thoughts until your checkup and less anxiety with the passing of every week and milestone!

Keep us posted.

Hugs,

It gets sooo much easier to just enjoy your pregnancy once you are able to feel the baby kicking around all day. It's the best feeling and you 2 that are 15 weeks along only have maybe a month or less before you will be able to sit back and relax and just feel your baby move around and get to know him/her better! It's so fun! Just a lil bit longer!

Good luck w/ your appointment!

-Ashlie