Thank you all so much

We are trying. It's odd how everything still keeps going on around you when your whole world should stop. Alex still has to go to school and be a teenager. Niko is still growing and being the awesome toddler that he is. Breakfast happens, the dog needs to go out, etc... And then, there are these moments when everything stops and tears come. When I go to sleep at night, I get sad because that's when I would talk to the baby...our special alone time. And then, when I wake up, it's still taking me a few to realize that I'm not pregnant anymore. The doc put me on lexapro. I'd usually fight the meds, but I'm truly afraid that after all of the chipping away this year, this may actually do me in emotionally.

For the moment, Dave is still scheduled to have his snip snip in December. Bless him, he just wants to do what makes me happy. He'd go through the fires of Hell and back for me and has. The hospital part was particularly hard on him. Holding our little boy really pushed him to sob and in all of our years together, I'd never seen him really cry.

Thank you all so much. I really can not tell you how much it means to both of us.

We are hanging in.

Angie

I'm not really sure what to say only that you have been in my thoughts and my heart just aches for you and your family. I can't imagine having to deal with what you have these last few weeks. I admire your strength Angie.

Take care of yourself,
Cathie

Hi Sweety!

I am so glad you posted....I was a little afraid you were gone for awhile....which is fine but I wanted you to know we are thinking of you, praying for you and are here for you....just take the time you need....

I thought of you a lot this week....a friend of mine went through the same thing at 24 weeks (I just found out the details this week when I was asking her to pray for you)....she too has amazing strength but she really had a hard time talking about the delivery, holding her, burying her, etc. I admire both of you so much....your strength is amazing....and I pray it gets stronger and stronger and stronger every single second of every day....for you and Dave and the boys....

It really sounds like you and Dave have an amazing relationship too and that is great....you are both incredibly blessed to have each other....

Please know you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.....and big hugs!!!

Ann

ANgie - so glad that you checked in - you've been in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be!

 angie,

I am not even going to try to pretend to understand that I know what you are going through...I lost a twin pregnancy at 16 weeks...still not the same...almost lost my son as he was a preemie and they blew a hole in his lung with CPAP, but I have only come close...not the real deal..however, that being said...if you ever just need a sounding board...please feel free to email me or call me...I  am a great listener and am willing to help you in ANY capacity that you wish!!  I do hope hubby holds off on vas for a few months...just to make sure it is what you both want.   Email me or call any time...I am a stay at home mom, so available any time you might need to scream!!  

Hugs to you, Dave, and your other children!

Laura
253-682-8960 (cell)
360-872-0560 (home) call collect if you need to!!!

im not going to pretend like i know what to say.. because i dont... my heart still breaks for you and your family

There is nothing I can say, but I'm so sorry.    

I'm glad you checked in.  I wish there was something to say or do to help you through this...but know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. 

I know it's my unsolicited two cents...but I agree with Laura that you might want to have Dave hold off any snipping until you've both had time to grieve before making that decision.  You're both in a pretty emotionally fragile state right now...and while nothing can replace THIS baby, that doesn't mean you may not want another one in the future.

*hugs*

It is odd how life goes on despite all the turmoil in your mind.  I felt that same way when my grandpa died last year....  kinda isolated like no one knew "the truth" and like I was alone in my misery. 

It's a horrible feeling.  If there's anything I can do to help let me know.... 

Come visit Chicago -- we'll go out shopping and site seeing.  :-)

Cindy

I truly hope the best for you and your family. I cannot imagine how you feel or hurt and Im so sorry for your loss. Please know that you and your family are in my thought and prayers.